If I could make an elixir,
To drive away your pain,
If I could find a version of happiness,
Lasting, to always remain,
I'd give every breath I could ever claim,
Every possession that bears my name,
I'd hold you tight until time stopped,
And drink up every tear before it dropped,
raison d'être, my life, my all,
I'd cut off my legs to make you stand tall,
This truth will always stay,
No matter what is thrown our way,
- I will love you till the end of me,
I love you more than you will ever see

You're going to warm me up,
Or burn me down

It's 4.47am,
We promised each other we'd try to sleep at 3.08am,
But I'm consumed by thoughts of you,
And this happiness and affection that'***** us out of nowhere;
Scares me.
I fear not a change of your heart,
For I've been there before,
Walked on that shaky floor,
I fear inadequacy,
You meteor of a person,
I want you to have the best,
And with no intent of self deprecation,
No tolerance for being told I'm worth it,
I know I will fall short,
I love you more than any emotion I've ever known,
But I want to feel okay about you loving me too.
Good night

I can only see the world from my perspective,
So please believe me when I look at you and say,
*It's a gorgeous view

A vacuum inside the chest,
I feel everything ****** into it,
Depression, that's what they call it,
I'm not sure this is what it is,
I'll visit a shrink,
Maybe that'll help,
Maybe there will be a label to this,
Because that's all anyone seems to look for,
I've never cared for labels,
So it's fine if shrinky can't figure one,
But something to fill up the void,
Just something,
To feed the vacuum,
Will help

With no hope of reciprocation,
With no desire for appreciation,
I say I love you,
Because it is true,
Because there's no other way to exist,
Because I love you

With a chance of misunderstanding,
With the fear of becoming a burden,
I don't say I love you,
Because love doesn't compel,
Because you're my best friend,
Because I love you

To exist, is to love you,
to love you, is to exist

There are beautiful things around,
If you'd stop to take a look,
Not chirping birds, not pretty flowers,
Not mountains, not flowing brooks

Beautiful things in the mirror,
Beautiful things in your head,
When you smile at yourself to go on,
A choice you choose not to regret

Beautiful things like you,
Beautiful like your eyes,
Beautiful things like your thoughts,
Beauty you can't despise

Beautiful things are a collection of you,
Your nuances filled with light,
Beautiful like your laughter,
Beautifully making things alright

Why do sad things attract you?
Why do you look for a problem to fix?
Is there a healer inside of you?
Or is it your asphyxia you want to fix?
The hungry child, the hurt horse,
All you're looking for, is a cause
Something to channel this hurt,
Something you are allowed to cure,
Something that makes you smile,
Something that gives you a day to live for
You're not doing anything wrong,
In fact you're righting a whole lot,
But what keeps your heart fighting,
Maybe you've ignored a blood clot
Give some love to yourself,
It's hard most days I know,
Your heart so full of affection,
Sometimes with nowhere to go,
But pull out that guitar,
Practice your chords and scales,
Figure out the colours another time,
Watch the mixed shades, inhale

I'm looking for better words,
To describe this inexplicable feeling;
Your exquisite person;
And all these  bubbling emotions;
That seem nourish and destroy me at the same time

Dancing through hula hoops,
Loopholes of incomplete lies
Awaiting an answer,
Redemption on the other side
But if that is an illusion,
There's no room for confusion,
Facts are simple,
Interpretations are a mirage,
Reality is irrelevant,
I don't trust myself with loving you

Draw a line, but not in ink,
Charcoal black will let you rethink

The emperor's word isn't set in stone,
Uncertain as breath, the power of the throne

The mighty sea is stirred by a wave,
Don't still your soul, before the grave

My precious heart,
You make me smile
So burned and bruised,
Still laughing all the while

The stardust that makes you,
Is one of a kind,
Rare just like you,
Impossible to find

How lucky am I,
To breathe the same air,
To witness a glimpse of your magnificence,
To know, you're there

A clean slate,
A fresh start,
A happy life,
Wishes for you, straight from my heart

I have known euphoria
- it's the sound of your laughter
- With or without me,
To see your happily ever after

Don't tell me it's gonna be a good day,
Don't say that now,
Don't tell me to be happy,
And don't give me ideas how

Don't give me hope,
Don't sell my dreams to me,
Don't tell me it'll be alright,
And don't tell me you see

Don't tell me it could be worse,
Don't remind me of how it was,
Don't admire my strength,
And don't give my courage applause

Don't let me love you,
Don't make me hold on,
Don't make an oasis out of you,
And don't, please don't, be gone

Love you*  isn't something you say,
It's something you *do

Gold has a high melting point,
It can take on a lot,
That's one of the reasons for its value,
You my love, with a heart of gold,
*Are put through all these trials,
Because of your stupendous resilience,
No, I am not happy about it either,
I'd rather have my strength tested,
And just because you can endure something,
You should not have to,
No, you should not,
But I cannot change this reality,
And I cannot ignore the fact,
That you have a survivorship record of 100%,
After everything that has been mercilessly thrown your way,
You stand tall, my gorgeous love
So I am placing my trust in you,
To win this battle,
And I will believe with every ounce of faith in me,
This is the last of the war,
Lasting happiness is on its way

You moved something inside me,
Set it to the right place

You are - everything
Certain is - nothing
For you I'd do - anything

My love,
You are in pain,
You can't hear me through the glass doors,
Nor does my hand touch yours,
- To comfort you (and me), momentarily, in vain
Thankfully, thoughts are not bound,
By these physical dependencies of expression,
You are with me,
In these thoughts,
In all the music,
Your gorgeous smile, like the wallpaper of my head,
Keeping me going,
My darling, your body hurts,
As does your mind,
There's not much I can do,
Except hope that you'll find,
My thoughts and love,
Ever present,
A warm blanket over you,
- I hope you feel,
Just a little longer,
And I won't have to steal,
Your smile from photographs,
Your laugh unreal,
A little longer,
A little longer,
Vacant eyes will shine,
Empty hearts will overflow,
Just a little longer, my love,
Through the clouds we'll see a rainbow

You are everything,
That I have chosen to make you

I close my eyes,
And you're here,
Lying next to me,
We're playing with each other's fingers,
It escalates to a thumb wrestle,
We're laughing,
Tickling each other, hands all over,
Laughing, giggling, happy,
Your head resting on my stomach,
My fingers running through your hair,
And you fall asleep,
I open my eyes

A kiss for a every tear,
A hug for every fear,
A hand to hold always,
An iced tea for hot days,

I can't offer you the stars,
They wouldn't do much for your scars,
I can't promise everything will be okay,
But I assure you one thing - I will always stay

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss*

You never breathe a word about your loss,
But every breath you take,
Reminds you of your loss;
And every word you never say,
Reminds me of your hurt

My embodiment of poetry,
I wish you'd let me see,
All the cuts and pain you hide,
I wish you would just be

Your life is yours alone,
Some times I forget,
My good intentions have often hurt you,
And I don't want another regret

Please hear what I feel,
And know that I am yours,
You don't have to be mine in turn,
I just want a share of your loss

There will come a time,
Things won't seem so bad,
We'll share a laugh and a beer,
For every ounce of strength you've had

This life isn't mine,
It was made for you,
These lessons aren't mine,
They were learned for you,
These thoughts aren't mine,
They were conceived by you,
These actions aren't mine,
They were steps towards you,
This faith isn't mine,
It was cultivated by you,

This life is yours,
It is lived for you,
These lessons, these thoughts, these actions, this faith,
It's all yours,
And all I hope is,
You are mine

This isn't a poem,
I do not like missing you

There is a long road ahead,
Let us walk together

There's just one you for me,
There's just one me for you,
Hold on tight,
We'll see this through and through

It seems I have forgotten what life was like without you,
I guess it wasn't very memorable
...until you came along

There are scars in places I haven't seen,
There are nights you wish you couldn't dream

There are things which were taken away,
There are losses that will always stay

There are moments you want to die,
There are times you're too tired to cry

There are feelings no one will understand,
There are burdens that don't let you stand

There are people that broke your faith,
There are monsters that keep you encaged

There are nights when you let yourself grieve,
There are days that don't let the nights leave

There are all these unhappy things and sorrow,
But my love, there's also  tomorrow

I love you in ways I did not know possible,
Not knowing from whence, why, or even whereto,
All I know is this; I love you
I will love you till there's a beat in this mortal heart,
And even after that,
I will love you regardless of reciprocation,
or lack thereof,
I will love you till time stops,
and until it begins again,
And I will love you

I just want to tell you I love you,
Over and over,
Until your nerves know, that when they hurt, I hurt too
I know we don't know what tomorrow will bring,
But I love you, and here's the thing,
Tomorrow could be a bed of roses, or a basket of nails,
It doesn't matter,
I just want you to realise,
That if we face it together,
It'll be okay,
And a single sunrise, or a million to go,
As many as there are in store,
I want them with you
I love you

The sun, the moon, the stars,
The cuts, the calluses, the scars

The strength, the fear, the trust,
The mind, the soul, the stardust

The inspiration, the love, the friend,
The rope, the fray, the amend

Everything together found in few,
My everything and more,*  *you

Where there was love,
Now there's a vacuum, it seems
And though I don't want to believe that,
I am holding on to something that isn't here,
And maybe,
Never was

Through tortured hands,
And a tormented mind,
Rose a rhythm,
Nearly divine

A pianist I knew,
Par excellence,
Stroked keys with ease,
His fingers danced

With perfect balance,
Of black and white,
The baffled king played,
For the rapt knight

But the melody ended,
Before I knew,
Like waking from a dream,
I thought was true

All I'm feeling is sad,
All I want is you

A throbbing head,
An empty heart,
An abrupt end,
A beautiful start

A black truth,
A white lie,
A still sea,
A dark sky

A severed bond,
A frayed rope,
A sincere prayer,
A dying hope

Like a star in a dark star-less sky,
Appeared without prelude,
Like a shooting star on a beautiful night,
Disappeared with nothing to conclude

You speak to them like they're ****,
Address them with adjectives I wouldn't like to take,
Mock their misery, and laugh at their pain,
Act like you're their God,
When really all you are is vain,
And I wouldn't care,
Except fate has me associated with you,
Which is more of a shame than pride, most times,
And I'm a little more sensitive to people's emotions than your self centered, ugly heart ever could be,
I'd correct you, teach you right from wrong,
But I'm afraid you're going to sing your own song,
And fanned with my disgust,
Be even more rude to them,
The only thing you are capable of.
*******.

I dreamt you last night,
And since I woke up,  
I've been trapped in that dream,
We were in a field,
Your head resting on lush green grass,
My head resting on you,
You were reading a book,
I was running my fingers through your hair,
For once, both at peace,
And I said, "come, let's go home",
And even in the dream,
You remained silent

Become, and unbecome,
In the altar of love,
Demolish knowledge,
Be a canvas, a sponge,
Let go of need,
Grab hope, for thy beloved,
And thy beloved alone,
Let go of the 'I' and 'you',
Reflect on the non duality,
If you really love,
Do not cheapen the emotion,
Become, and unbecome

Disparity is a sad thing,
While one kid is forced to eat,
Another is forced to find leftovers to fill his vacuum stomach,
While one refuses to study,
Another longs a book, or probably doesn't know what it is,
And this breaks my heart and makes me cry,
And I tell myself to stop being so ******* sensitive

Today is about missing you,
About missing your spicy fresh perfume, that I'd begun to love,
About missing your plump fat nose, that I never managed to pinch,
About missing your intense and sometimes senseless banter, that I'd never get enough of,
About missing your attempts to reduce the amount of coffee I drink, that I unwillingly adhered to,
About missing the quarter piece of a jam toast, that you always saved for me,
About missing the way you calmed me down, when we faced storms together,
About missing how you took note of everything, a new hair clip, that I knew you'd like on me,
About missing your watch, which you never took off, because of what it meant to you,
About missing your stories, and the zest with which you narrated them,
About missing your photography, how you captured my best and worst moments, when I wasn't looking,
About missing our shared love for yogurt drinks, and how we analysed each one we drank,
About missing how you screamt 'Mogu Mogu' when you found your favourite drink, in my favourite café,
About missing your big hands, that were strong and gentle at the same time,
About missing those few drives with you, talking about everything and nothing,
About missing how you surprised me on my birthday, with chocolates and a scarf, that feels warmer than any other,
About missing your silly quirks, like carrying your backpack around everywhere, which only I understood,
Today is about missing you

I tried to write a poem on how I feel right now,
And all I could scribble was a paraphrased House quote,
*I feel nothing. And it doesn't feel great

The seas could freeze,
The mountain caps could melt,
Who knows how the world could end?
Except for the love lost -
The world ends every night,
And begins again every morning

These broken brights are singing me a song,
It's like they know where we began from,  
I listen with intent,
They're singing without your consent,
But you make a slip, hum along,
And quickly retract, as if that's something wrong,

These broken brights, carry traces of your light,
It helps me see, through the darkest night,
Your shadow emerges, and quickly leaves,
Caught in the act, a pack of thieves,

These broken brights with a scent of your musk,
Get stronger every evening, my companions of dusk,
You blow off their flame, but they burn strong,
These broken brights are mine, they'll sing our song

You became too crucial,
Key word being  too
Too essential,
Like the air I breathe,
But of all the things you can do,
I should have known,
You could cut off the air,
Leave me to suffocate

I don't think I can take it much longer,
I did think I was a little stronger,
But this warped world, and its warped inhabitants,
Have left me dumbfounded,
Running behind immaterial materiality,
Leaving behind priceless pursuits,
Seems I am trapped,
Doomed to be here,
With no room for my overwhelming fear,
Already left behind all that counts for anything,
Only to count all these countable things,
I know this doesn't make much sense,
But this is reality with no pretense,
If I could, and I wish I could,
I'd end it now, gladly,
Sadly, our beginnings and endings are never ours alone

I just had to get out of there,
She was too much,
She loved me, no doubt,
But we often hurt the ones we love,
In the very name of love,
I tried,
I tried hard to work myself around her ways,
'Cause I knew she meant well,
But the hurt was getting too much,
In my life that's out of control,
And what was worse,
I found myself comparing her to*  you
The only one I ever loved,
The only one who knew how to love  me,
*She was a friend,
But not that perfectly fit piece,
To fit the empty space in my jigsaw,
Taken away with you