There is only so much I can do from the outside,
Your life is yours alone, as much as I'd like to think we share it,
We don't

You smile and laugh, put on a show,
Sometimes I laugh along,
That's the only chance you won't let me go

These barricades and fences,
Put up around your heart,
I can see through them!
But can't tear them apart

In a bulletproof vest,
I'll fight with you
And one day, a long time away,
We will see this through

Are there ruins in your head?
Where I see treasures
Is there pain in your eyes?
Where I see hue lit sunsets
Is there darkness in your heart?
Where I see fear
Is there a secret in your laughter?
Where I hear tomorrows
Is there deceit in your words?
Where I see promises
Is there armoury in your arms,
Where I find comfort
Is there anything real?
Where I have built air castles
Is there hope?
In those ruins, that pain, darkness, laughter, words, arms,
all that I am hopelessly in love with

Am I that see through?
Do you always know what's running in my mind?
Do I smile too much?
Do you think that's all there is;
Whatever meets the eye is all there could be?
Is that what I think?
Am I questioning you to question me?
Is the world spinning around or am I?

You say you love all those things,
Things I know you're very fond of,
And then you say you love me,
And suddenly I'm not sure you grasp what that word means to me

When they come for me,
They'll find me alone,
No lover, no friend, no mother,
Alone,
And I will rejoice,
To be in that state,
Unchained from clutches,
Memories erased,
I care not if you later remember,
And regret you didn't let me be,
You forced me to surrender,
Made a puppet of me,
No I won't care,
That you thought me a fool,
Label all you want,
Make yourself feel cool,
I've believed your lies,
And I've fought for you,
And the real **** up is,
I'd do it again too

A hole in the gut,
And a gut feeling,
Do you trust the apparently holy?