I've decided to stop smoking.
I signed your name on the dotted line.
Of the prescription my doctor prescribed to me.
Your my drug of choice.
Normal teenagers choose **** or other drugs.
But i want a life long endless supply of you.
I want all of you, the good, the bad, and the bipolarness.
I know that's a lot to ask for but I can handle it.
I wanna be able to lay next to you
Curl up under you and inhale your aroma.
The smell of your cologne trying to hide the **** smell from the room.
I wanna be the fire that lights you up.
I wanna be that same fire that releases the sweet essence out of you.
I wanna be the only person that makes you smile.
I wanna be the only person you **** for.
I wanna mean as much to you as your **** do.
e.s

Sit and talk to me for hours about anything
Tell me all your dreams fantasies and nightmares
Tell me how much you love me
Listen to me complain about everything that bothers me
Tell me you'll never leave me
When I can't take all your ******* and I wanna leave
Fight for me to stay
Tell me how much you can't live with out me
Every girl wants a bad boy
But I want a bad boy who's willing to turn good just for me
e.s

You know what they say when someone's in your dream.
They say if someone's in your dreams they they say either you have feelings for that person.
Or You could be just think about me before you go to sleep.
In this dream i said "i feel like you're a ballon and i'm a little kid who is jumping to get you.
And you keep slipping away.
You told me well keep holding on and you'll get me.
I'm very insecure when it comes to you.
You ask me why I get jealous.
Of course I'm to shy to give you an answer.
But the real answer is....
I don't want any other female to catch your attention.
I don't want any other women to get closer to you than I am.
I woke up this morning asking myself what did my dream mean?
Is it telling me to stay or let go?
Do you want me to stay or go?
I barely know you but I'm fascinated be everything you do.
I love the way you hide everything from me.
But i hate that about you also.
I guess this is a sign.
Lets see if one day you'll be mine.
e.s

I love you but it hurts. It hurts because i feel like you don't care.
It hurts because i don't have a clue on your true feelings about me.
It hurts because you push me away.
It hurts, hurts to the point where i hate you and never want to talk to you again.
But that same feeling is what causes me to love you more.
I like the feeling of right now.
The feeling that you care for me.
But in a few months who knows what i'll mean to you.
I ask myself that question all the time.
"What do i mean to you?"
Your good at this game of show and tell.
Either you show and don't tell or You tell and don't show.
Which is what I love about you.
The mystery keeps me interested.
To the point where i want more.
When i say more, I mean more of everything.
All the little cute things you do when it comes to me.
Many guys have caught my eye but not like you.
When I look at you i see something great.
Your what I like to call " Greatness in the making".
I see the ambition in your eyes.
Every time we talk It makes my day a little better.
I love our random conversations.
I love the fact that out of all people I feel like you won't turn against me.
I never worry about you.
I worry about the things you go through.
The reason i say this is because i care to much.
I care about everything more than i should.
But that's just part of my personality.
But your personality is different, Your different.
Now that I've gone through a change personality wise from Alaska to how i act at Lithonia , Were kind've opposites.
I guess its true when they say opposites attract.
But sometimes things don't turn out how you thought it would.
Something deep down inside me tells me you don't feel the same.
It's okay i had a feeling we would end up like this.
But at the end of the day.
I wish you nothing but the best of luck.
And I hope you and her have a good relationship together.
e.s