I like the idea of you,
Not us.

It was over,
Even before it started.

You're not mine,
I'm not yours,
No contrast or comparison,
We don't belong.

Identity,
Society worst enemy,
Telling you who they want you to be,
Gay,
Troubled,
Vapor of all immorality,
But can't you see?
This isn't who God wants you to be,
Our mentality,
Is all physically,
Materialistically,
Can't afford it?
Get laughed at shamefully,
Blamefully, on all parents salaries,
Sacrifices they make, we discriminate painfully,
Our identity,
Is it more than society?
Are we gaining the world profitably,
And losing our souls spiritually?
How could it be?
May be its the government's hypocrisy,
Leading our lives drainfully,
While living lavishly,
Our identity,
Blink of an eye,
Being downloaded virtually,
Are we free?
They know my last name,
My address,
When and where I last caress.
If I was stress,
Or lustful undress,
This is the devils test,
Worldly identity,
Put it to rest.
                -kcliburd
                  04/11/14

Identity,
Society worst enemy,
Telling you who they want you to be,
Gay,
Troubled,
Vapor of all immorality,
But can't you see?
This isn't who God wants you to be,
Our mentality,
Is all physically,
Materialistically,
Can't afford it?
Get laughed at shamefully,
Blamefully, on all parents salaries,
Sacrifices they make, we discriminate painfully,
Our identity,
Is it more than society?
Are we gaining the world profitably,
And losing our souls spiritually?
How could it be?
May be its the government's hypocrisy,
Leading our lives drainfully,
While living lavishly,
Our identity,
Blink of an eye,
Being downloaded virtually,
Are we free?
They know my last name,
My address,
When and where I last caress.
If I was stress,
Or lustful undress,
This is the devils test,
Worldly identity,
Put it to rest.
                -kcliburd
                  04/11/14

I want to write about the Gospel,
Still, don't want to offend anyone,
I want to say how He saved me,
Yet, I unable to show compassion,
I want to say how He lifted me up,
Good intentions, his Favour,
He bestowed upon me,
I want to say how He loved me,
Yet, I still sin,
I want to say how He wanted me to fall on my knees,
Pray,
Twice,
More than a day,
And thank Him for all He has done for me,
Yet, I just living,
And I can feel His presence,
Calling me,
Like I'm the chosen one,
To preach the goodness,
Of his mercies,
None can compare,
He promised no weapons formed,
Will prosper against me,
Yet, I'm the weapon,
Creating images,
Unpleasing to His eyes,
Oh, Father,
Have mercy upon me,
I am your child,
And I want to give my best,
This I promise,
From this time forth.

You see,
She was stubborn,
She liked it her,
Or no way,
You either satisfy her,
Or leave her,
All she asked for,
Was your time,
   Your attention,
    Your affection,
The way you made her body shiver with unspoken words,
As she inhale,
Then exhale,
She leaves you with a smile,
And caress your spine,
It was you, she only wanted you,
And couldn't deal with other girls appeal,
Flushing their secret deed towards your eye appeal.....

We were together for three years,
He held my precious secrets,
Text messages,
Pictures,
My laughter,
My tears,
We stayed up until 12,
Reminiscing,
How further could we go on like this,
Plans,
Dreams,
Goals,
Hoping that we could go another three years,
Then suddenly, and
We fell apart,
Piece by piece,
He left me,
Speechless,
I started to imagine my life without him,
I gave everything to him,
And he gave his utmost best to me,
Now it's time,
I think it's time,
I buy myself a new phone....
                 -kcliburd

Not only are there other fish in the sea; there are other seas.

She’s beautiful,
Like real beautiful,
Mind,
Body,
Soul,
As she twirl,
And twirl,
Across the ocean,
In her red grown,
She smiled at her lover with lust,
Connecting their soul with trust,
Could it be till dust,
Simply happy,
She couldn’t ask for more,
Than to be dancey,
As she twirls again,
To her lover she goes….
           -kcliburd
            5/10/14

She's smiling again,
Mentally stable again,
Breathing fresh air again,
She's on that I can do it again,
Physically able again,
Think you can drown her again?
She's prepared again,
Standing again,
Rising again,
Think you can stop her again?
She's moving forward again,
Nothing's in her way again,
Think she has her own way again?
Move!
Let her pass again,
She's not thinking about you again,
Who are you again?
Just another loss for you again,
Uprising again?
Dreadful words again?
Please leave again, don't look back again,
Just another again trying to gain ways again.
Lol, confused again?
Come on, again?
                      -kcliburd
                        22/09/14

She's smiling again,
Mentally stable again,
Breathing fresh air again,
She's on that I can do it again,
Physically able again,
Think you can drown her again?
She's prepared again,
Standing again,
Rising again,
Think you can stop her again?
She's moving forward again,
Nothing's in her way again,
Think she has her own way again?
Move!
Let her pass again,
She's not thinking about you again,
Who are you again?
Just another loss for you again,
Uprising again?
Dreadful words again?
Please leave again, don't look back again,
Just another again trying to gain ways again.
Lol, confused again?
Come on, again?
                      -kcliburd
                        22/09/14

Craving to love,
Determine to love,
But why love love?
When love doesn't even love us?
Are we loved?
Or wasting love love's?
-kcliburd

Once suicidal,
Now deciding twice,
                  Should I?
                  Could I?
                  Would I?
Will they miss me?
Will they care?
Do I even exist?
Or just another passing bliss,
A growing flower just dying of thirst,
I mean, you were special,
You were all I’ve ever wanted
Now look at what you’ve done,
You’ve created another broken ship
As you sail along the sea
Looking for another prey,
Will this ever stop?
Will you just settle down?
With your crippled heart,
Making broken promises,
Salty tears and,
Angry voices,
Look at you,
Trying to convince yourself that you’ve matured,
That you are not who you were five years ago,
But it just looks like you’re five times worst...........

Once suicidal,
Now deciding twice,
                  Should I?
                  Could I?
                  Would I?
Will they miss me?
Will they care?
Do I even exist?
Or just another passing bliss,
A growing flower just dying of thirst,
I mean, you were special,
You were all I’ve ever wanted
Now look at what you’ve done,
You’ve created another broken ship
As you sail along the sea
Looking for another prey,
Will this ever stop?
Will you just settle down?
With your crippled heart,
Making broken promises,
Salty tears and,
Angry voices,
Look at you,
Trying to convince yourself that you’ve matured,
That you are not who you were five years ago,
But it just looks like you’re five times worst...........

We cant be friends
And just pretend
Acting as if there was no us
The smiles
tears
laughter
but most importantly love
A bond so strong
I wonder where we went wrong

Being friends?
My soul mate,
How could you?
Now regrets, at one point I needed it
Shouldn't have been beautiful
But it was more than that
I just wanted you to be my last
I just wanted to feel and be loved
Loved by you

Just friends?
Those words dawned on me
Didn't I mean something to you?
Or you was trying to get it then leave?
I cant figure you out,
You make me wonder
Then ponder
Me wanting to be your last
Didn't mean a thing to you

Just friends, he said.

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Looking into your eyes,
As we entwine,
Promising forever,
Not 'suring' of tomorrow,
Nothing even matters,
We kissed passionately,
Wondering if this will ever be,
Ever be more than a kiss,
Or will be forever missed.

You then looked at me,
Lost in your eyes,
I reached for the beat of your heart,
While pressing, that mine has the same sound,
Look at us,
What are we doing?
Is this for real?
What I'm feeling,
Has never been felt before.

Our twisted love story will just leave minds unbearable.

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Happy?
She ain't happy
Looking for attention
So they laughed at her
You're weak
Pathetic
He ain't never coming back
Stop drowning yourself
Stop chasing that wack
Looking for an excuse to be happy
Happy he was to me she said
But baby he ain't never coming back
He promised to come back
And love record will play its own track
Look at that
He ignored that text and blocked that call
Baby he ain't never coming back

I Look

I look for you
Then I look for me
I look
I look up and out
Then down and in
I look deep within
Then I look again

I look hot then
I look cold
I look for something
Something that's missing
Forever I seem to be reminiscing
Then I look

Can we look?
Look for promise
Can we compromise?
And look for something more beautiful

I mean, I'm looking for you
But can you look for me too?
Then we wouldn't be looking
Looking for lost soul
In a crippled sea

I continue to look...

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You're beautiful when you're there
And ugly when you're not there

Judge you when you're not there
Critique others when you're there

Compliments that last a mile
Then rebuke you as you journey on

You try to stay humble
But inside hate rumble

Inside hate, outside love.

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She's been hurt before
Torn apart
Restless nights
Silent nights
Crying nights
Wondering what if

Hurting inside
Broken
Emotionally unstable
Are you there?
Were you there?

Happy
Then sad
What's next?
Suicide?

She's not happy
But who knows?
She has the brightest smile and kindest words
Save me from myself she said

To be continued...

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Up and down
All around
She cried tears,
Feeling the urge of fear,
Thinking her time was near;

How could she bare?
Only the thought of spare,
How could she deal,
When it was him keeping her steeled.

Up and down,
Was love really found?
The bond that fonder,
Only made thunder,
Crying for mercy,
Still tears that was thirsty.

Who is she?
Is she me?
Deep within
Was just beauty of sin.

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If he only understood that I would do anything for him,
My best friend, my lover,
Someone whom I would tell all secrets,
Someone who I would feel secured with; my flaws and all.

Does he not see the importance of my call?
Ignoring me, mentally abusing me
Could he not see that it is him whom I loved to be around?
That way I am safe and sound;
No!bold
Instead,
He crushed me,
Emotionally shut me down.
Friends? Talk to me but I feel numb,
Girl you're dumb,
Having your heart pumped,
Now you're crumbed.

I lost my best friend, my lover.
He tried to use me but is it my fault?
It's like we both wearing the same cap but one is where my weakness is.
At times I'd feel taken by him while he's taken by her.
Is this love three pointed?

To be continued....

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