its just unexplainable
the feeling, i have for you
i still don't even know what it is about you,
that makes me want to stay around for a while
i miss you
every day, and i am just hoping, that maybe
you miss me too
but who am i kidding,
im nothing special to you
i wont ever be
and that kills me inside,
seeing you smile,
which oh, is so beautiful..
but i know, that your happiness is not because of me.
but there comes a point
where i have to let go of you
and i guess thats the fall in love
and hopefully one day,
ill be fixed
again

it's always me
always the broken one,
the unloved one,
the overly jealous girl.
the selfish one,
wanting you entirely to me
and it kills me
because i can't have you the way that i want
so i have to by each day,
missing you, wanting you
and it hurts because you were a chapter in my story,
but i was just merely a line in yours

i saw you with her
my heart shattered,
just when it was being fixed
i saw the way you looked at her
her eyes were full of joy
i saw the way you held her hand
you didn't want to let go
i saw the way you talked to her
as if you wanted to spend all your time with her
i saw the way you kissed her
like it would be your last day seeing her

i saw

-j

it all started with hi
just one word, two letters
i never, in that moment, thought you'd mean this much to me
never
but, surprises are always falling from the sky
i fell for you
and still to this day, i regret it
regret falling in love with you
but, silly me
how i turned out like this
the broken, useless, unwanted girl
but you never knew
because i wasn't important to you, she was
you basically showed me
that someone like I, cannot be loved


-j