Trapped in a cold nothingness, you leave for higher grounds. It might not be safe and sound to fall and hit the pavement, but you still want to escape the numbness, to stop feeling the resistance of a psychotic beast and a figure in the distance. You only look forward, because if you look back, the darkness might swallow you whole. And the hole you've been digging has finally made it to the other side of nowhere. "I don't care," never scared, always prepared to pick up and leave your everything behind. If I was you, I'd lose my mind. So I'm glad you haven't yet. And I'll be here to try and hold you together if you do.

Heart strings knitted together
Like a lost and found sweater
Thrown away, never
To be seen
Again

When
Did we meet
Like a rhythmic beat
That will never
See defeat
A sheet
Of music,
A lyrical masterpiece

I was the fuel and your were the fire
I should have known that love can expire
It's not the way I'm wired
To stay bolted to the same spire
Unable to walk in the mire
That is
This connection

The selection
Of mismatched heartstrings
Sings funeral songs
How have they made it this long
Wasn't it a game all along?

My mind frame hangs on a wall
But I've forgotten the image that it held.
Maybe the rise and fall
Of everything that I used to call
Home.

I've lost my train of thought
But I'm still stuck
On the wrong side of the tracks
And the way I act
Has no impact
On what goes on
Around me.

Indifference.
When was the instance
That I stopped seeing things as beautiful,
That I stopped hearing your voice as wonderful,
That I stopped thinking of my self as capable
Of living?

Existence
Does mine really matter
If I climbed a latter
Would I have to come back down?
How do I know if what's lost
Will ever be found?

Someday I will think of you
And smile because I made it
Beaten and bruised,
The darkness didn't consume me
I cried for what I didn't understand
But I held my own hand.

I said goodbye to you
The moment I your shook hand
I knew if I let you go
That you might, someday
Come back

Instead of Unity
There is darkness
Instead of Unity
There is pain
Nothing but a Drain
Nothing but selfish
Unkind
Evil..
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry.
I know that I said something wrong
Something I did
Something
Or nothing at all
But now you hate me
And I know that I deserve it..
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry.
I thought this would be easier
I thought
I could just move on
And love you less
But you see me, and you look away
You don’t stay long enough
For me to apologize, but
I don’t know if I would..
I’m sorry
I’m sorry
I’m sorry.
I didn’t want to break this.
That’s why I didn’t end this
But I waited for you to ask
Because I knew you would
Time is running out
Soon
You won't be around
And

I’ll miss you..

I’m sorry  
I'm sorry
I'm sorry.

A mirror, showing
Nothing but an exterior.
A shell of inferior
To the inner being.
Looking without seeing
What does not reach the surface
The surplus, the purpose
That’s not as beautiful.

Ugly, inner truth,
Do you define my entirety?
Or are you the evil irony
That makes unhappiness priority?

Pained like windows,
Widows hang on walls.
Eight-legged nightmares,
Trying not to fall.

Knitting webs,
Made of lies,
Trying to be clever,
Trying to hide.

A tangled mess
Of silken strings
Homes filled with knickknacks
And mismatched things

Always rebuilding
What was new yesterday
Relentless pest,
Find a new place to stay.