As I lay here in bed my only thought is you. Hoping, just hoping that you're thinking about me too I just want to text you and tell you how I feel. But rejection is a motherfcker , a feeling too real. So I suppress my feelings and a friend ill stay because I don't want to be the one to scare you away. Deep down wishing you felt the same ,but I know you don't , probably never will ...so am I to bla...me ? For putting myself in a situation when theres nothing to gain. Wishful thinking got me here. Being optimistic got me here. Being naive got me here. The words " I want you" I've been longing to hear. Your sweetest touch I've been dying to feel. When I'm not with you I want your near, I know we can never be so why am I still here ? Maybe I might just love you ,something I fear I know nothing can never come of it, so why am I still here ?

You say you have moved on
So why do you still haunt me?
Thoughts of happiness and laughter
Happiness and laughter without ME
I tell myself im over you
so why do you still haunt me
I dont hit you up like i use to
does this mean im over you?
i dont dream of you like i use to
does this mean im over you?
sometimes i feel i'll NEVER be over you
what must i do what must i do  to be over you?!!
Sad to say but i still love you
and what angers me the most is i'll never stop
you'll forever be a part of me....but apart from me
and it bothers me
stuck in my head like a sweet sweet melody.
For Eternity.