you know, it's awful when you walk down the hallway, and you pass somebody. somebody you spent hours on the phone with, telling them all of your secrets and insecurities, the one who knows everyone about you, and the one you love. but you just walk by without saying a word. you know why? because people change their minds in an instant, and you can't do a thing about it. you just pray that one day, someone will love you forever. until then, you're stuck with the memories haunting you.
( l.b )

all the things i want to tell you
• i will never love anyone the way I loved you
• i will never love anyone again
• my bones ache to be near yours
• your eyes still give me chills
• you are still perfect to me
• i wish i could have been what you wanted
• i die every day because you don't love me anymore
• i look for you in everyone now
• everything reminds me of you
• and i still love you and always will
( l.b )

I hope you remember the color of my eyes (they're brown).
And my favorite color (it's blue).
And I hope you remember the day we listened to johnny cash in your car (the rain was pouring down).
And I hope you remember that I love you with every fiber of my being.
And I hope you remember that you will always be the only one for me (I told you that many times).
And I want you to know that you wrecked me.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore and it's all because of you.
I miss you more than my lungs miss the air when I'm underwater.
But you are the water.
You stole all the air from my lungs and left me breathless.
Please give it back. I don't want to need you anymore
But I do. And I always will.
( l.b )

i haven't been with you in a while.
9 weeks and 2 days to be exact.
that's
           65 days or
                 2.1 months or
                        1560 hours
that you haven't touched me. or looked at me. or even cared that i existed. you make me want to die.
( l.b )