i've come face to face with demons
clothed in depression and unforgiveness
whispering words of anger and bitterness
how relentless
those demons...

that visited me frequently
choking me in my slumber
reminding me of every regret
i'm inclined to second guess
myself
those kinds of demons...

that peer around the corner
whisper in your ear
increase your anxiety
strengthen your fear
yes, those kinds...

little *******
try to pin me down with defeat
they sing, "hey~ do you recognize me?"
and to that i answer, "yes" in  español.

yes, I recognize you,
but as of now I don't care
when I focus on the good things in life
you're not there.

let me tell you about lethargy
lethargy is like picking up the phone with your feet
because your mind is too tired
to send a memo to your hands
lethargy is making your lips dance
around a string of twizzlers for dinner
just barely

lethargy is so strong
you can't even remember what rolling out of bed feels like
in fact rolling out of bed
feels like lying in bed
the only move you make is to lay your head
on the cool side of the pillow
rarely

lethargy is getting to that point
where you lack all strength to breathe
eyelids way too heavy to see
the body feels numb
and the only thing the ears can hear
is the heart
"Ba-Dum..Ba-Dum"

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