No and no and no

Have you ever heard the word before?

Now be so kind to let me go

Or I'll make sure your teeth are gone forevermore

The bitter truth has hit me yet again
And I can't seem to swallow the tormented caused by a friend
The one who I deemed worthy to cradle my heart in her hands
Was the one who brought me an old wicked spawn of mine that I now try withstand

Why, is the only question surging in my mind
Why has she use my benevolence and spat on my trust?
Why has she chosen to disregard me to fulfil her lust
To be a person who craves more than anything to be someone who makes others must?

Why and why and why

My cries are pushed away by the gust
While I try to stay still and hush
More than anything I want to see her old hidden just
That had disappeared after she corrupted herself with that same disgust
People held against me whom I still cuss

And as the red anger bubbles and boils my skin
I think of the happy days and go cry to feel thin
The weightless feeling to wash upon me
A desperate wish I still harbour and a childish grin
The one who she reincarnated from the afterlife
From the moment when I began to feel alright
When you told me not to feel so contrite

Was that some cruel joke to you?
A good laugh to get out of a blinded fool?
I became vulnerable and open up to you
Just to treat me like a tool?

What ignorant imbecile have you become, Danonina
I almost can't believe it
Even if I rub my eyes as hard as I can
The malicious intent doesn't shift nor bend

Do you not remember who stood in the rain with ya?
Who fed and listen to you after every heartbreak and troublesome charades you got yourself into, ah?

I worried and bled for your entertainment
Without ever wanting any payment
Yet you don't hesitate to stab me and let blood stain my not so pure white raiment
Patched and covered in mud from previous battles
That made me age and become mentally brittle

So, dear someone I carelessly placed the tag of a friend
And whom I had shown nothing but respect
Kept quiet about the things I saw
Even if in the end I began to fall

Do explain why the eager wish for my tremor?
Was it because I filled you neverending fleemmer
Even when you were nothing but a *****
Begging, head the ground, licking the shoes of gits, on all fours

With every drama and cliche story, you brought to life
In which you'd always start to lie to others how you got high
I found out with dread seeping within my core and engulfing
What our companionship came to be

Before I was a person you cared who was your apogee
Though now, I turned into a disregarded absentee

I mumble unclear words in the prime of the night
The pain is not seeming to subside
And one question, one single dilemma gives birth to the misery:
How could you even dare forget about me...?