ac - Hello Poetry

ac Jul 15

she sees him
and her stomach flips

those eyes
and his smile
make her fall more and more

she never seen someone so perfect

he sees her
his heart swells

her gorgeous face
her kind voice
he longs for her

but to him, she deserves someone perfect

ac Jul 15

what a funny little text

Monday 9:05 PM
tell ur lil friend to stop texting m* before he ****** me off for answering
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Yesterday 12:47 PM
hey it was just supposed to be a joke m* didn't have to answer lol that was his choice didn't realize u would get pressed but sorry abt it all it won't happen again
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but then again
i kinda intended for
you to be offended
that he answered me faster
than he even thinks of you

cuz i mean
you took him from me
so excuse me
for feeling a little petty
after he left me
for you

God forbid i liked a boy
and all of this for what?
when everything went down we’d already “broken up”
tell me who i am
cuz i don’t have a choice
all because i liked
a stupid f ing boy

but i’m still kind to you
and you know its true
but you still treat me
like that word that means poo
yet i haven’t told him
a single word you say abt him
since you won’t say it to his face

it’s funny cuz he misses me
which means he’s thinking of me
when he’s avoiding you

oh and when he thinks of you
it’s cuz he wants to break up with you…
and i have screenshot proof

ac Jul 15

9 words

you
said
you’d
never
do
exactly
what
you
did

ac Jul 14

i know you regret it

i hope that my absence bothers you.

i hope that when you hear my name,
you feel sadness and regret.

i hope that you look at the moon,
and question where you went wrong.

i hope that you look at the stars,
through tear filled eyes,
and ask why you hurt me that bad.

i hope that every fiber in your being is aching
as you wonder
at this point in our very existence
“is she missing me too?”

in all truth i am
more than anything in the world
but i’m taking my own advice
the same advice i once gave you

im not taking you back
just because you miss what we had
doesn’t mean you won’t ever stab me in the back

i was stupid before you left
but you leaving made me smarter

so i’m not gonna warn you
as you leave the girl you left me for
thinking ill be waiting with open arms

cuz watching you lose the girl you “love”
will make it all the more sweeter
and i’ll be sitting here thinking
“i thought asians were smarter”

ac Jul 14

we’re both to blame

you say you’ll never leave
oh baby, that’s so sweet
but you don’t know a single thing
cuz you’re gonna meet THE girl
she’s gonna be your whole entire world
BUT
she’s gonna hate me
she’s gonna make you choose
and then that’s when you’re gonna leave

now,
i’m staring at my ceiling
trying not to cry
cuz calling you was the only way i got by
sure,
i see you every single day
but we don’t say a single thing
it went stranger, just friends, stranger again
cuz you said you’d never leave

now,
you won’t even look at me
son,
can’t you see it’s destroying me?
i told you i never cry
but lately that’s been such a lie
ever since that awful day
i told you to walk away
because deep down
i started to believe
that you really would always be there for me
i’m so sorry

ac Jul 14

comfort

they say i’m not over you
but they don’t know the truth
i’m over you
i’ve been over you

but what you did to me
it haunts me
and it will forever be a chapter in my story

no one knows what you did
the full extent of it
for that is only for us to know
for me to suffer with

it’s funny you thought
that i’d keep “our little secret”
why do you think i’m in therapy?

i see fear in your eyes
from the idea that other people know something about you
that could ruin you
that you’re scared of what me,
your victim could do

it’s not fair
why do you get to be scared?
i had to be brave
even after that terrible thing

you’re pathetic
you’re a coward
trying to embarrass me
when you embarrassed yourself

i’ll always hang it over your head
because you know what i can do with it
kinda sad how that’s the only comfort i get

ac Jul 14

“when you meet the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible”

see ive met THE person
ive known him my whole life
i’ve known it was gonna be him since we were 5
we’re 16 now
and he has a gorgeous girlfriend
of almost a year
i catch him staring often tho
with a look in his eyes
the look tells me that he knows it too
that he knows we’re meant to be
it might explain why he acts like he hates me
but i know he doesn’t
how could he?
especially after all the stolen moments we’ve had
i know he remembers them