Every night,
I think back to the time.
When we were still friends,
and I miss our late nights,
but it got toxic.
And I got scared.
So I left,
and you screamed.
That was unfair.
I blamed you for a while,
but I realize it was me to.
I was so scared,
that I bailed,
and I wish
I could go back.
Because I miss you so much.
And every night I cry,
thinking of why,
I left you.
It all just happened,
in the blink of an eye.
I want to apologize.
And say I’m sorry.
I would ask you to forgive me,
but you wouldn’t anymore.
And I understand.
So instead ill just say I’m sorry,
for everything I’ve done.

Light meets dark
Inside my heart
Battle between
Right and wrong
I’m broken Into parts
Angel vs devil
I try to decide
But both dominate
And I’m left
To keep switching sides
The dark slowly wins
And I begin to wither
My heart grows old
And I become bitter
The dark has won
I have lost
Take me oh darkness
To the place of the lost

I’ve changed.
I’ve grew,
and not for the better.
I used to laugh.
But now I wither.
I lie in my room and stare at my ceiling.
I wish I was different,
but times have changed me.
I’m not the same.
I don’t smile, I cry.
And I’ll watch myself die.
Because I’ve been changed,
that’s life.
Always a different person inside.
Change exists, and I hate it.
Take me to 2019,
when I wasn’t hated.
Change change, and more change.
Nothings ever the same.
Grow up, go back.
Life’s insane.
Oh, how I hate change.

I’m being watched by everyone,
and everything.
But still I’m alone.
Left in the dark,
being watched by the monster that is me.

I hate roller coasters.
Their bumps loops and drops.
I go on them to fit in,
buy I always want to stop.
My friends are scared.
They scream and need comfort.
I pretend to be fine,
because they need help not me.
My hearts just quietly thumping.
I ***** every time.
But still I must ride.
I smile and say it’s normal.
But it’s not I feel horrible.
They make me sick and nauseous.
But still I ride them.
Because I can’t be the one to disappoint.
So I’ll keep pretending I’m fine.
But deep inside,
I hate roller coasters.
I never want to ride them.
But I do for my friends.
Because theirs no other option,
I can’t be the wimp.
So I’ll just smile and then cry.
I hate roller coasters.
Please don’t make me ride.

Smile
      Cry
          Put on your mask
                And get ready to die
                       That’s our life just accept it
                             Then you can go silently hide
You can take it of alone
     Don’t complain to me
          It’s just human nature
               Go hide and blend in
                     You can’t just be
I’m so tired of this mask
      But what the other option
             Burden others with my past?
                       They wouldn’t like me anyway
                             That’s why we always hide
                                  And silently decay

But it’s ok mines not that bad anyway