I am closed off
On the inside and outside
No road signs warning

The rain masks your tears
They form deep lines on your face
Your face like a map.

People won't tell you.
No words to express their hate.
Quietly you're shown.

I hope you can find
All life has to offer you
Each rock turned over.

Trust is a hurdle
I've not been able to clear
Crippled by deceit.

I've matured and grown up
Just enough for me to see
The monster and the liar
You have come to be
Lies and late nights away
Women at every door
You said that you loved me
But didn't know what for
Now I've met someone who cares
Who hangs on my every word
Warms me when I feel the cold
I know you think that's absurd
Maybe one day when you're alone
You'll look back on these years and see
I just wanted to be loved
With inherent honesty.
.

I misunderstood
I thought saying I love you,
came without a price.