My youth is fading—
the time I have as a young woman is slipping away.
Oh, how I wish I could embrace someone,
at least just once.
The clock ticks, and so do I,
ticking away my youth,
my childbearing years.
The world is so harsh to a young woman,
so unforgiving, so cold.
Oh, how I long for a family—
a place I could return to,
one that welcomes me with open arms,
where I could curl up and forget the weight of the world.
But here I am,
wasting away,
all alone,
on my own.
Maybe love isn't for me.
At least, I wish I could taste it once—
once where it’s patient, where it’s kind,
where it’s not twisted or fleeting,
and we grow old together.
One where we can count each other’s grey hairs,
and even when death is near,
it takes us both,
together.
Bound by soul and heart,
inseparable,
our fates intertwined,
written in the stars for each other.
I sit here, wondering—
is love meant for me?
Or is the time I need to wait still ahead?
Has the one written for me already died,
or is he oceans away, waiting for me in heaven?
Perhaps he’s waiting,
or perhaps I’m falling deeper into madness,
longing for something
I may never have.