How do you forget
what it means to feel
so you could hurt me
so deeply I'll never
fully heal?

Even now I don't think
I understand how
you could be so
detached from what you
stood for

You'd forgotten all
that you once promised
twisted and turned the memories
and my words until you
could blame it all on me

Every sin, every crime
placed on my head
even though it was never
my duty to bear
this is not my punishment to reap

And yet the weight
of your touch and
the pain you caused
weighs so heavy on me
I very well might drown

I think there might be
something out there that might
balance the scales so the world
can find something resembling
the peace we were promised

But so much of what I was told
would happen never did
and now I don't know
what to believe
when it comes to a promise

How do I know it's
true and won't just be
forgotten again?
How do I know
you won't hurt me?

Your face haunts me
though you never even died
your shadow still clings
like a desperate ghost
that refuses to move on

There's a peace somewhere
far from here waiting
for the both of us
in separate places
but you won't let go

You cling desperately
to the rotting corpse
of what once was
a love that you considered
to be real

The light touch of one
who used to care
might have fostered it
and made it to flourish
as beautiful as any flower

Nothing at all
would have let it
fade away peacefully
unnamed and unknown
but less painful

But what you did
***** the remains of
what was something pure
and left its body to the flies
and the rot that awaits

That is something I
don't know how to forgive
maybe my sin is
simply that I can't
remind myself to forgive

You broke a promise
but not a simple one
you promised me something deep
and you laughed
because you knew it was a lie

You strung my love along
like it was a puppet
in your hands
a toy to enjoy
and entertain

But never something
real enough to treasure
I held no value to you
nothing more than
the wind in the morning

Like the scent of
a candle in a closed room
a warm bread too far
to properly reach it was
sweetness with no substance

None of it was real to you
none of it mattered
but like any other
magician you made me
believe for even just a moment

Maybe it was real
maybe it was all a lie
but there's no forgetting
the scars you left
on what was once me

There once was a promise
of a paradise that I could reach
as long as I could be "worthy"
keep my body and mind clean
and walk in a straight line

But my steps always wander
and I never could stay clean
while wandering through a maze
and the things to be "worthy"
are something I'll never be

They told me to promise
and I couldn't do it
I refused to let myself
be sold away to a lie
and this pain doesn't end

Heaven is too far
a promise of peace
somewhere I can't reach
away in the stars
or maybe in another place

And Hell is too close
tangible in the ground I walk
and the air I breathe
smoke fills the sky
and scars grace my skin

There's no promise here
that hasn't already been broken
I wish I could tell you
what we used to do
but I can't remember it anymore

I wish forgetting
was as simple as letting
go, stepping back
and giving up

The memories could flow
calm and slow
a gentle trickle from
my mind to somewhere else

But it's not that way
even if I wish they wouldn't stay
there's so much I'd give up
if it meant I could forget

There's not much left here
since I let go of my fear
or was it hope that I dropped
way back there in the night?

I wish I could just forget
all the ways I would let
you come and take from me
all that was once mine

But there is no forgetting here
what I once held dear
you asked for forever, I promised to try
and now I only have memories

I wish I could forget
the way you would get
when I said no and you told me
it was love when you took too much

When things get too much
it's about time
you put down the shovel

There's little time to crunch
and much better things you could do
then digging your own grave

When things start to break
put down the hammer
and step away

There's little time for an ache
that won't stop hurting
so learn to walk away