i miss you
i’d shout
into the clouds
but it’d turn into fog
for the truth
is becoming ever clearer
i do not miss you
i miss
what we used to be
i miss the version of me
that only you remember

somewhere out there
is a version of me
that only exists
in your mind


please hold me dear
please nurture it
please think of me
do not let me go
extinct

years ago
i had presents ready
and stayed up all night
memories ago
i had paragraphs written
and typed out my heart
lifetimes ago
when we were
friends
but today
i sit quietly in the dark
still staying up late
only now
the words barely leave my mind
and get stuck in my throat:
Happy Birthday
i only wish
we’d still talk