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Ganu R 1d
The name I made for myself.

It took me years of patience and effort, and I never spared a single moment for myself alone.

I had always relied on this goal of mine, a dream worth sacrificing myself for.

And then one day, it's all gone.

I'm forced away, hearts unsynced, and although it's also been a while, my heart remains shattered.

Because I realized that I'll have to go to sleep, and dream.

Being awake and dreaming at the same time is impossible, isn't it?

Because it had always been the name I once made for myself.
Actually, I was forced to move to a completely new area. It's been a month or so, but I am still adapting. I was forced away from all my relationships, and of course, it is not the same. They live much farther now, and there has never been a day where I haven't missed them.

My core memories, they were all left behind. I'm trying my best to adapt to this environment, but it just isn't for me. I'm not welcomed here. My adults, they have never supported the thought of balancing my personal/work+school life, so they only think I'm in my own space 24/7 and seperated from reality. I guess, that is 50% accurate of a thought compared to reality, but no matter how hard I try to relieve this perspective of theirs, I fail. So I gave up, and I followed my own path. I still am, but at the bottom of my heart, I'm always hoping they're watching over how hard I'm struggling, the tears I fight every night, the lock necklace that remains apart of my flesh.

I miss the name I once made for myself, because here, it wouldn't matter if I existed or not.
Mar 13 · 104
Falling In Love Again
Ganu R Mar 13
Tonight, the midnight sky is rather different.

It consists of dark clouds rapidly moving, dissapearing, and taking turns covering the bright entity in the sky.

I can only catch a momentary break of light, cracking through the clouds.

But I'm only searching for a beauty that cannot be revealed to this world.

I stare at myself, my reflection being cast upon me, this glass seperating me from the untouchable entity.

But in my eyes, I catch the big round beauty, glowing in me.

And finally I look up, the clouds moving away, my thoughts clearing, and my focus on one, breathtaking moment.

And that's the moment I fell in love.

With the moon.
Mar 4 · 54
Missing You
Ganu R Mar 4
My heart has never moved on.  

Even if yours is in sync with another one, I know it will never be mine.

I'm always longed for a response from you, my feelings concealed from this world, like a glass that will never shatter upon a reflection.

I'm forced into a new world, a new home, and to be around strangers who do not resemble you, those eyes, that smile.

And I know you won't come, but I still look beyond the crowds of strangers, for you.

Do you do the same, too?
Feb 27 · 65
Leaving You
Ganu R Feb 27
In the vast world, it's him and I.

We love each other deeply, our hearts in sync.

I share his burden, and he shares mine. Together, we're like the moon and ocean.

And then it comes to me, that it's only my imagination.

Tomorrow will be the last time I'll try to meet his eyes, and offer him my whole heart without expecting him to offer his.

Because after that, I'll be saying farewell with my broken heart.
Feb 23 · 93
Tears
Ganu R Feb 23
One tear of true pain, it's better than multiple tears of despair.

When you're hurt multiple times, the wound only gets deeper, the pain etched into your heart.

Love, hate, greed, suffering, impurities, compassion, several contemplations I've experienced in this life, all that brought tears.

Tears, they're precious. Valuable. Beautiful. Tears.
Feb 21 · 122
Black Rose
Ganu R Feb 21
On a mountain filled with beautiful sunflowers, lies one lonely rose.

It's the only dark, gloomy, and black flower on the field.

But the sunflowers are different, always relying on the sunshine. 

The black rose, small and invisible, has never once, seen any light.

And so, on a mountain filled with beautiful sunflowers, lied one lonely rose.
Feb 19 · 185
Melody
Ganu R Feb 19
There is a beautiful melody playing in my heart, every time I see him.

The full moon in the sky, is accompanied by the stars.

But my heart wrenches at the same time, because a melody cannot be played forever.

As time flies, the moon and stars separate.

Aware of my feelings, he directly approaches me and ends the melody.

The moon and stars become less visible to each other overtime.

A lonely heart, nightmares, and no melody.

The sun rises.

The moon and stars disappear.
Ganu R Feb 17
Everyday, I wait.

I wait for the moment I'm not surrounded by anything other than the darkness lingering around me. The moment the souls around me leave to roam different realms.

And in that moment, can I truly be myself.

I've always been delicate, or at least that's how I appear. In truth, I have been concealing the cracks within me. I can break, but I cannot completely shatter. Not because I don't want to, but because I can't afford to.

But in this darkness, with no one around, can I shatter, break, and let out cries of pain. I'm tired, tired of being forced to appear perfect when I'm not. Even if I have to endure for years in exchange for a second of this darkness, I would.
Feb 16 · 72
Sunrise
Ganu R Feb 16
Sunrise, the birds chirp outside and the realization that my heart is still beating, enlightens me.

Last night, surrounded by the darkness of my shadow, I thought the pain, tears, and darkness would eat me whole. Instead of fighting, I waited for them to devour me.

But the white roses in my dreams, suddenly became red, forcing me to open my eyes. Sunrise, what a beautiful view. I've been offered a second chance, another day to cherish my existence in search for the meaning of life. What a beautiful day.
Don't await your end :)
Feb 15 · 120
The moon, a star.
Ganu R Feb 15
The moon, a star, one perspective.

Both illuminate, only if I search for light.

If I was the moon, my presence would burden this world, when I'm at my darkest. But nonetheless, I enlighten the same embodiment. It's just a matter of who, when, and how I'm viewed.

As a star, I can only be gazed upon when I'm surrounded by darkness. I'm different from the moon, much unlike a fragment of a soul.

In the end, I'm always watching, yet there's nothing I can do. The moon, star, death, and life. Unless I'm searched for, my existence alone is insignificant. Unless I'm accompanied by another, all I can do is wait.
My very first publication. To me, this poem does not have one single meaning. Depending on the person viewing it, this poem has various meanings.

Truth and meaning, they're both perceived by a perspective shaped by memories, experiences, and personality. To sympathize, means to place yourself in one's shoes. So, if you were the author of this poem, what would be its meaning, and with what intentions would you have written it? This thought, your response, is exactly the meaning of this poem.

If you would, take a look outside tonight. Watch the moon, find the stars, enjoy the scenery, and read this poem. I would like for you to try and feel, feel what I possibly could have, while composing this piece. Thank you.

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