Once, the weight was all I knew,
shadows clung where light once grew.

The path was set, the steps were sure,
then fate struck hard-no open door.
The ground I knew was stripped away,
and I was left to learn the gray.

Silence hummed where voices fell,
echoes trapped in hollow shell.
Footsteps wandered, never far,
circles drawn in falling stars.

Then-just a glance, a sound, a spark,
a shift, a crack within the dark.
Not fate, not fire, not something new,
just proof the sky could still be blue.

Not a promise, not a chain,
not an end to what remains,
but air enough to breathe again,
and space to stand beneath the rain.

I drifted long, unsure, alone,
lost in places once my own.
But now a path begins to gleam,
not what was, but something seen.

I wake up lost, my mind is split,
pieces gone,I can’t find it.

I don’t mean harm, but harm is done,
I speak, I act, then comes the flood.

The truth is bent, but never fake,
I don’t remember my mistakes.

Then consequences crash like waves,
I drown in all the mess I’ve made.

I lose myself, I lose control,
I never mean it, but I know.

I was drowning in silence, too tired to fight,
A ghost in the mirror, fading from sight.
The weight of the world crushed into my chest,
I begged for an ending, I needed to rest.

Then love reached for me, warm and bright,
Hands on my face, pulling me into the light.
It filled me with laughter, it taught me to breathe,
It stitched up my wounds, then it chose to leave.

Now I stand here, alive but not whole,
A stranger inside this borrowed soul.
Love made me happy, love set me free,
But love is gone,who the hell is me?

I don’t know what I am or what makes me whole,
I only see through this hollow hole.
The hole of an empty tunnel, cold and black,
No way forward, no way back.

So here’s my goodbye, whispered, unheard,
No touch, no name, no final word.
I belong to no one, I fade like the sea,
Love is gone—gone is me

I climbed to her heaven,
hands bruised, heart bare.
She watched, untouched,
then vanished-thin air.

The steps collapsed,
love turned to farewell.
She rose to the light,
I plunged into hell.

The voices say your name.
Or is it me?
Is it you?
Or is it me?

I can’t tell anymore.
All I know is they won’t stop.
And neither will you.
Or me.

I am empty.
And I don’t mean it metaphorically,
or poetically,
or romantically,
or in any other way you like to dress it up.

I am empty.
Straight up.

Unreciprocated love took everything.
And there’s nothing left.

There once was a boy, good and kind,
A hollow heart, a muted mind.
No laughter, no tears, no joy to give,
A quiet life he chose to live.

He waited long for love to find,
A spark to wake his frozen mind.
And one day, she appeared,so bright,
She filled his shadows full of light.

Her smile, a sunrise, burned away
The empty haze of every day.
She spoke, and colors filled the air,
He felt alive, she placed them there.

But love, unspoken, takes its toll,
She left, and ripped apart his soul.
She didn’t see the life she’d made,
She walked away; he watched her fade.

Now darkness clouds his every thought,
A love so pure, but all for naught.
Betrayed by hope, abandoned by grace,
His hollow heart’s a darker place.

In that void, a voice did call,
A velvet whisper through it all:
“Let’s make a deal, a bond, a dance,
I’ll give you peace, just take my hand.”

No faith remained, no trust, no plea,
Just endless night, a vast, dark sea.
And so, he bowed to the devil’s charm,
And took his hand with no alarm.

Together they waltzed through shadows deep,
The boy, the devil, the secrets they keep.
No heaven, no light, no stars above,
Just endless dark o god o no

I simply love you,
I say to myself every day,
for you are not here anymore,
for you who don’t want to hear it anymore.

And still, I say it,
because the silence echoes louder than words,
because love doesn’t vanish,
even when it’s unwanted,
even when it’s left behind.

I’m hallucinating, you are there.

Some infinities are bigger than others,
mine was the biggest,
stretching beyond what I could ever hold.
Yours?
Yours wasn’t infinity.
it was just a moment,
a fleeting blink,
and I was left with
an infinity of regress.

I’m hit with forever,
a love that never ends,
no escape,
no release,
just endless,
unreturned.

If I can’t be your lover,
I’ll be your friend—
no expectations,
just presence,
a steady hand when you need it.

If I can’t be your friend,
I’ll be a contact,
a name you might call when the world feels too heavy,
someone you can lean on
even from a distance.

If I can’t be a contact,
I’ll disappear.
I’ll fade into nothing,
a memory or gone,
but at least I’ll know
I honored your space,
your choice,
even if it means I don’t exist at all.


But what if I can’t honor it?
For my love grows
even when you’re not here.
I fall in love with the memory of you,
with the silence left behind,
with the ghost of a touch I’ll never feel again.

So what am I to become?
A shadow?
A dream that lingers just out of reach?
Or just a fool
clinging to a love
that you’ll never return?

I said: Please, God, take me away.
If you’re there,
you know I don’t want to stay.

Why’d you do this?
Why leave me like this?
Breathing feels like punishment,
waking up, a curse.

If you can hear me,
then you know
I don’t want this life.
I don’t want to go on
without her.

So take me.
Take me, or tell me why
you won’t.

What am I,
if I can’t let her go?
If others move on,
find new faces,
new lives,
but I stay here,
chained to a ghost
I don’t want to forget?

Do they love less?
Or do I love too much?
Did I lose myself
in her laugh, her touch,
the way she existed
so effortlessly near me?

I don’t want to move on.
I don’t want a new story.
I’d rather love her
with all the weight of this ache.
for years, for decades,
for the rest of my life.

If that’s wrong,
then what am I?

She said,
“You died the day I left.
I don’t know that person anymore.”

And she was right.
My ego shattered the moment she walked away.
The arrogance that held me together
turned to dust in her absence.

Without it, I’m unrecognizable,
even to myself.
No pride, no mask, no armor,
just this endless ache.

What is my limit now?
How far can I fall?
I don’t know.
I’m still falling.

If I renounce love,
I renounce you.
And with that,
I hold onto nothing.

Without you,
there is no anchor,
no flame,
no reason to exist.

You have broken me,
but without your love,
I am empty.
I would rather ache for you
than feel nothing at all.

I thought I was the only one hurting.
I thought my heartbreak was the center of it all.
I told myself you didn’t care,
that you left because it was easy for you.

I didn’t stop to wonder what it cost you,
to say goodbye, to hold back,
to see me break while you stayed silent.

I painted you as cold.
I made myself the victim.
But maybe you were hurting too,
just in ways I never understood.

I regret that now.
Not just losing you,
but being too selfish to see
that it wasn’t only my heart that broke.

Stop, heart
she doesn’t love you.
Beat steady, act right,
don’t beg.

I want to be in her life,
but not like this
not selfish, not weak,
not drowning in my own need.

Man up.
Let her go.
But my heart
won’t listen to a word.

I love you without boundaries,
yet your truth shatters my silence.
In your light, I wither,
a quiet despair screaming in the dark.

You left, I unraveled.
Not gracefully, not quietly,
tore myself apart in the open
where the world could see.
You wouldn’t have recognized me then.
I wasn’t the boy you loved anymore.
I was a shadow dragging his own weight,
a ghost haunted by his own body.

I said things,
did things,
became someone even I couldn’t stomach.
But that wasn’t me.
That was the wreckage
of losing you.

you don’t just leave someone.
You take pieces with you.
the pieces you took,
the ones that made me whole.

Now I sit with the ruin,
misunderstood and misplaced,
I’d give anything,
anything,
to show you
I’m still him.
The boy you once loved.
If you’d just let me,
I could be him.

It was always you.
And it was never me.
I loved like a flood,
you sipped like a breeze.

I built a home in my chest for you,
and you walked through it
like a stranger passing by,
leaving the door open behind you.

Her absence cuts deep,
not because I’m alone,
but because she was the piece
that made it all whole.

In your absence, I crumble, I fade, I burn,
A love so pure, I can never return.
For even I, who once held the night,
Am shattered by love’s unyielding bite.

I don’t blame you.
Love can’t be forced to bloom.
But I wish you had stayed,
just once,
long enough to notice
how much of me was yours.

I gave everything, your everything faded away.
I burned, while your fire was tamed to gray.

Love should be balance, but ours was theft,
You took it all, and I was left.

A quiet ruin, a hopeless plea.
Unrequited, it’s killing me.

Once, too deep, too hard, too well.
No caution, no edge, no end in sight,
Just her, just us, just blinding light.

She was the world, and I was the sky,
Reaching too far just to stay in her eyes.
She left, but love did not fade,
It lingers, it aches, it won’t decay.

I beg,
over and over,
but it’s never enough.

Each word digs me deeper,
a hole too dark to climb out of.

I’m lost,
and the only way out
is a God who doesn’t hear me.

I write about her for hours,
pour every thought onto the page.
I know exactly what to say,
how to make her understand.

But then she’s there.
eyes like home, voice like a song.
My mind runs too fast to hold,
every word I’ve ever written
colliding, unraveling,
spilling into nothing.

There is so much,
a storm of love, of longing,
of everything she makes me feel.
But all that comes out is I love you,
the simplest, the smallest,
yet the truest thing I know.

And then I cry,
because it’s not enough,
but it’s all I have.

I cast my hope into the sea,
A fragile light, a desperate plea.
The waves arise, they pull it down,
No voice remains, no love is found.

Her name still lingers in the tide,
A ghost that will not leave my side.
I call, I reach, but waters take,
And every breath begins to break.

Yet still, I hope, though hope betrays,
A dying spark in endless waves.
I sink, I fade, I disappear,
And hope, once bright, is nowhere near

Best described as alien beauty, out of this world,
A wonder, a mystery, a star unfurled.
Big brown eyes, deep and wide,
Lost at times, yet full of life.

A gaze that held both light and shade,
Charisma woven, soft yet brave.
If I could be lost in them forevermore,
I’d say yes, without a war.

You’ve let go…I never will.
You’ve moved on…I love still.

I cry, I scream, I bleed in vain,
In pain that echoes, calls her name.
She doesn’t care, she turns away,
A fleeting thought, a shadow’s sway.

I beg for her to see my scars,
But she flatters away, beyond the stars.
I want to forgive, to let it go,
But she never asks, she’ll never know.

And in the silence, I break once more,
Chasing a love that she’s closed the door.

I wait for a love that’s already gone,
A shadow of what was, yet I hold on.
Her absence is the cage,
And hope is the lock,
Each day I decay,
Still trapped by the thought.

A love that could never be,
But I cling to the dream,
While she fades away,
And I drown in the seams.

It doesn’t matter where we stand,
A field, a church, or a empty land.
A burned forest, the skies turned gray,
With her, it’s beautiful in every way.

It’s not the place, but who I see,
Her presence turns the world to dream.
Wherever she is, wherever I am,
That’s where my heart will make its stand.

But she’s not here anymore,
And so I stand, staring into the void.
I’ll speak the words I never could,
But they’ll echo in the silence, destroyed.

I’ll invent a tragedy that never ends,
A love that dies, then twists, then bends,
A world without her, forever gray,
Where I exist, but I’m not alive in any way.

And the abyss will answer not a word,
Just swallow me whole, and leave me unheard.

She won’t return, I know it’s true,
Yet my hands still reach for a love that withdrew.
My heart still beats, though it has no will,
For waiting does not hurt,,,waiting kills.

No footsteps, no voice, no sign,
Just empty hours that whisper she’s fine.
And if she’s fine while I decay,
Then what is left of me to save?

When her thoughts no longer fill my mind,
When her voice is lost to time,
I will search the empty dark,
But she will be nowhere to find.

Day by day, I will wither,
A hollow man, a breath undone.
And when the last memory slips away,
So will I, no fight, no run.

No echoes, no pulse, no name,
Just silence where love once remained.
When she is gone, so am I,
No more tomorrow, just goodbye.

A stone tied to my leg,
A note pressed beneath the knot,
Her name, a whisper, a wound,
A love that won’t be forgot.

The scissors rest within my hand,
Edges sharp, freedom near.
But I won’t cut,I never will,
I’d rather drown than live without her here.

I am a prisoner of love,
Locked in a cage with open doors.

I will never stop loving what breaks me,
The one who did nothing wrong,
Except not love me back.

If I could throw a spear, I know where it would land.
Not at the one who left, but at the hand
That clings to ghosts, that won’t let go,
That feeds on dreams now cracked and cold.

For the one who breaks me is none but me,
Loving a heart that won’t beat free.
It’s not her love that tears me apart,
But my own thoughts, my own heart.

Once, I stood high, untouchable,
Pride unshaken, heart unchained.

Then I met her. Loved her.
And for the first time,begged.

Begged her to stay.

No armor, no ego, no pride.
Just her name, and the fear of goodbye.

I plant my prayers in silent ground,
Water them with words unsound.

The stars fade, the hours drift,
Yet still, I wait, my hands unclenched.

If time must steal, let it restore,
What once was lost, return once more.

No cries, no chains, no last despair,
Juste attendre et espérer.

I’d trade it all to cross your mind,
Even for a second, for a fleeting sign.
A thought of me, no matter how brief,
To be the echo of your quiet grief.

But I remain unseen, lost in the night,
A shadow you’ll never find in the light.

Everyone says it will get better,
But I know it won’t, not without her.
I’ve loved only one, and she’s gone,
Now I’m left, just holding on.

The pain lingers, cold and deep,
A sorrow I can’t shake or keep.
No love could fill this empty space,
For she’s the one I can’t replace.

To be seen as scary when love is all I feel,
Is the hardest truth, too heavy to heal.
You saw my sadness and pulled away,
But never once did I wish you dismay.

Through every tear, through all the pain,
I’d never hurt you, that will remain.
All I want is for you to see
The love I feel, that’s all I need.

When the storm of sorrow came,
And we fell apart, both lost in shame,
You saw my sadness, felt the weight,
And fear began to seal your fate.

You thought my pain could turn to rage,
That in my grief, I’d lock the cage.
But through the dark, through every tear,
I’d never hurt you, not you my dear.

In sadness, I still kept you close,
Even when my heart was ghost.
For love that true could never break,
Though my soul ached for both our sake.

I lost you to the colours of your truth,
A heart that beats for freedom,
But shatters me in two.

You said it like a spell,
soft, silly, safe.

Back when love was light,
before it cracked,
before we fell.

I hear it still
Miric
a name that feels like home,
a home that is no longer mine.

Remember Me

Remember me in love,
not in the ruin I became.

I was yours before the fall,
before the weight, before the end.

Let me live in that
not in the way I left.

I was steady,
until you.

Love came like a fault line,
cracking open ground I swore was solid.

I was never meant for saving,
only you needed hands that held,
I let mine slip.

Now the earth is still again,
I am not.

I’m a man of my word,
I’ll love her till I die.
She swore the same,
Now I see, I swore alone.

I’m lost in chaos, her shadow still near,
A love unreturned, but she’ll always be here.
I scream in silence, my heart torn apart,
Chasing her memory, she’ll never leave my heart.