If I could throw a spear, I know where it would land.
Not at the one who left, but at the hand
That clings to ghosts, that won’t let go,
That feeds on dreams now cracked and cold.

For the one who breaks me is none but me,
Loving a heart that won’t beat free.
It’s not her love that tears me apart,
But my own thoughts, my own heart.

Once, I stood high, untouchable,
Pride unshaken, heart unchained.

Then I met her. Loved her.
And for the first time,begged.

Begged her to stay.

No armor, no ego, no pride.
Just her name, and the fear of goodbye.

I plant my prayers in silent ground,
Water them with words unsound.

The stars fade, the hours drift,
Yet still, I wait, my hands unclenched.

If time must steal, let it restore,
What once was lost, return once more.

No cries, no chains, no last despair,
Juste attendre et espérer.

I’d trade it all to cross your mind,
Even for a second, for a fleeting sign.
A thought of me, no matter how brief,
To be the echo of your quiet grief.

But I remain unseen, lost in the night,
A shadow you’ll never find in the light.

Everyone says it will get better,
But I know it won’t, not without her.
I’ve loved only one, and she’s gone,
Now I’m left, just holding on.

The pain lingers, cold and deep,
A sorrow I can’t shake or keep.
No love could fill this empty space,
For she’s the one I can’t replace.

To be seen as scary when love is all I feel,
Is the hardest truth, too heavy to heal.
You saw my sadness and pulled away,
But never once did I wish you dismay.

Through every tear, through all the pain,
I’d never hurt you, that will remain.
All I want is for you to see
The love I feel, that’s all I need.

When the storm of sorrow came,
And we fell apart, both lost in shame,
You saw my sadness, felt the weight,
And fear began to seal your fate.

You thought my pain could turn to rage,
That in my grief, I’d lock the cage.
But through the dark, through every tear,
I’d never hurt you, not you my dear.

In sadness, I still kept you close,
Even when my heart was ghost.
For love that true could never break,
Though my soul ached for both our sake.