You have crafted my heart into the finest shape that only fits in your hands .
You have designed my dreams into the most beautiful dreams that even when I am awake I am a sleep.

You are building my life into a wonderland maze  that only you have  the map that guides me .
You have coloured my sky and painted the sun so each morning I wake it shines next to me .

You have melted the bars and broke the chains of the prison I kept my self in .
You have build the stairs all the way to the sky rock by rock with your bare strong hands .

You have pictured our home , a life and our kids and hanged it on my wall .
You drew our love with the finest lines , with gentle touch for it never to be erased .


03.04.2017

e.m

As you exhale the smoke of your cigaret whiles I drink my coffee, the rush of the caffein in my blood gives me the shakes and your seductive presence makes the palms of my hands sweat ?

You take a sip of your black coffee whiles I inhale you every time you look at me with those deep dark eyes that ignite flames in my chest and set me on fire ?

I exhale the smoke that leaves me slightly light headed whiles your lips touch the coffee cup and I am jealous   of anything that touches your lips for I have not kissed those bitter sweet lips of yours ' yet '!

I take a sip of my coffee whiles you inhale every bit of me . Hot blood rushes  though our veins carrying sweet  poison of coffee and cigarets together with  bitter potent souls of our confused being !

White smoke of poison we once inhaled  together which tasted sweeter than honey has now left nothing more than just a bitter taste in our mouth and grey mist as a memory of us ...

e.m

You who can paint the most beautiful paintings with his words and make me the main character of them all , the art of life and muse of your Love .  

I have never been lifted this high before .
So hight that I can reach those colourful rainbows that you paint for me .
You make me float in the clouds and brush by the stars at night with my fingertips .

High ,all the way to the cuddle of the sun and caresses of the moon .
So high where even the wind does not blow to change your hearts flow.

Every  morning I open my eyes you glow .
There is no sign of laziness in your smile . Your greed for my kisses is flattering . You are even jealous to the wall I am facing.

You selfishly pull me to hold you and yet you lavishly lift me up high for another day .
I can feel your warm strong hand under my feet.
And if I was to fall after all I would be no different than a falling star .

How ignorant have I been all this years and taken all you have given me for granted .
My eyes have been so blind all this time until you mercifully opened my heart for me to see your light.

I have been walking around lost and empty, ignoring all this life around me that you so perfectly created .
How dark have my days been without you . When you were the only true light that I could not see.

How foolishly I have taken for granted every beat of my heart that you have given me .
Every breath I took and filled my lungs with life that you destined for me .
I blindly believed I can take  control of my life only to forget that you are the master of my soul and the architect of my fate .

You have been everywhere all this time.
In the flowers you created so immaculate  and the trees  that you designed to stand so tall and proud that I admired .

In the water I drink in the tears I shed .In the smile I give and the truth I seek . You have been there all this time to guide me .

How ignorant have I been to only believe in temporary pleasure and visual reality  that left me empty with nothing to show .

In all my doubts and in my darkest nights you stood right beside me to test my faith when I believed I was alone .

I lived in fear and feared it all for I have had not understood the beauty of them all .
You have been everywhere all this time . In life and death , in all my sorrows and all my joys .

Now that I found you I shall have no doubt for the rest of my days that you have gifted to me so generously .
I surrender to your light and I trust your power for I have no right to question you.

Now that you are my light I will trust for you to guide me so I wont lose my way back to you.  I beg for your forgiveness for all my weakness and foolishly forgetting that you are the only truth and my souls only joy .

e.m

Your lips are where I can finally rest mine and drink all the sweetness of them to drench my thirst of longing for a beautiful soul like yours.

Your body is a temple where I can finally hide my soul and let it rest safe in your warm loving embrace .

In my bed is where the rest of the world does not mater where we get lost watching our naked bodies dance with each other in tune of sweetest love song .

In your deep  brown eyes is where I dive to swim every morning I open  mine to see your sweet smile under the light  just a kiss distance away from my lips .

In my bed is where my reality is sweeter than a dream . Where I don't want to sleep and miss your hand touching my neck gently down to my shoulder all the way to my hip.

Your smell is the air that I want to breath before I sleep ,intoxicating
every cell of my body exploding in pleasure of your sweetest perfume of love ..

12/10/15
e.m

In the palm of your hand is where I would rest my head and dream of our love that we once had ..

On the corner of your lips is where I want to rest mine ,breathe in your dreams that dance with mine.

In the core of your heart is where I want to rest mine, I shall trust for you to keep it safe even when we are dying  .

In the brown of your eyes is where I want to rest my blue . How I wish we had a giant brush to repaint our life's through .

There is no other place that I would rather be but by your side , no other   smile I would rather see but yours my sweet innocent child.

There is no other prayer that I would pray but health for me and you ,so I can be by your side to teach you only one thing “how to love and be true “.

There is no other love I would rather feel but yours that I adore , it fills me up with so much joy unconditional and pure .

There is no other child I would rather hold but my grandchild one day ,just to see the resembles of your face on your sons face  and remember this days .

There is no other love I would wish for you to feel but from your own child one day ,so you can feel the warmth in your heart I feel for you today .

There is no other pain I would rather feel but the pain I felt just to have you here, every tear that I shared you replaced it with a smile and cheer .

There is nothing else in the world that I would rather wish for you my child is for you to feel this same love and joy that I feel for you today.

Between loving and waiting ..my mind wonders around into the darkest forests into the deepest seas ,
climbing the highest  mountains and diving into the coldest seas .

Between kissing and waiting ,my thoughts race around whats true and whats a lie ?

Between known and unknown you,
call me your woman whiles I wonder , if you are my man ?
My mind wonders,my body drown in pain .

Between pain and loving, I get high with your smell and broken in your absence .

e.m

Beyond this visible reality ,I imagine a place where our souls would be dancing to the sweetest sound of love whiles we would drink each others lips with thirst .

All my fears would fly away and our naked bodies would move to our sound of moans.
Just us two , no one else and the melody of ashes our flesh and bones .

I would recognise  your face by  those warm looking eyes. As I would dive into your sweet warm embrace my feet wont touch the ground.

We would melt into each other and be blind to whats around.
I would rather be blind without seeing  just to hear your voice no any other sound .

The distance between your breath and mine would be where our presence would taste sweet again . I wont need anymore space from you so I wont lose my self again.

I would breath all your breath in, just to fill you back with mine . So we can travel as air into each other until we both become one .

I would turn into your blood and swim through your veins ,strait in to your heart. Just to burn in flames of your heartbeat , that you claim to be mine.

If I could ,I truly would ,ware you as my skin ! Just to constantly smell your potent  smell that on each breath makes me feel as real being .

Identities that I have lost , feelings that I have burried . Scars that I hide pain that I still carry .
Faces I miss and those that I forgot . Friends that mattered and those I did not cherish.

People I loved the most and kept them away . Family and friends that cared sincerely which with whom I feared to stay.

Loves I gave and those that I took . Moments I cherish and few that I regret.
Wounds that keep opening and those that don't seal .
Life's that I changed and scars that I healed  .

Characters that I became and roles that I killed .
I was a lover ,a wife , a friend an enemy.
I've been a child ,a girl ,a woman even a man compulsory !
A main character of  my own love story,  drama ,horror and tragic comedy !

I've been an old minded woman in a child's body . Insomniac since five that I could not tell no body .
The long runs I took just for the sake of running away , from those that cared the most and I lead them astray .

Promises I kept and those that were broken . Hopes that I gave and hopes that were forgotten.
Highs that I reached and lows that I fell . Battles I could not conquer for I am prisoner of my own cell .

I was a warrior, a victim a survivor.  
I am a dreamer a realist , a hypocrite ,a naive .
I became a cynic , atheist and a believer . A true saint and a real sinner .

I have come so far and way beyond , only to see myself becoming everything that I wanted and everything that I don't .

e.m