What is this feeling that is terrorising my entire being?. l try to escape to the safe haven of sleep, yet he too cannot offer me refuge. L long for silence and peace of mind, they too have become strangers to me. Flood gates open, and like a tsunami the worst of my fears flood what was once my safe space, dangerously colliding aganst my pillars of sanity.

L feel severed from everything, the more l try to connect, the further l drift into this vast empty space. L float aimlessly, a part of me wants to fight but the other part of me is near breaking point.

The stench of fear makes me want to *****, l can feel the hollowness in my  stomach, almost like am drained to the last drop of energy.

L am consumed by the search for answers, yet they remain agonizingly hidden from me. Desparately l search for signs from the universe to help solve my dilema, do l give up or shall l fight till my last breath. Loud voices torment my soul, fate's darkness is closing in on me.