Damaged soul
Broken heart
Eyes so cold
What an art...

A broken piece
with so much hurt
nothing to feel
betrayed by the world

Everything is aching
My heart is breaking
I'm suffocating
I'm crying for help
Because i can't save myself
Help me please

I'm dying
I'm crying
But i have to keep smiling
It's getting on my nerves
I'm just so hurt
But this scar is not the first

I have to keep up this mask
It's a difficult task
I see no light, everything is dark
Everyone feels like an enemy
I'm drowning in jealousy
Please Help Me
.............

I can see nothing
Everything is hurting
I don't even know me
Can't find me
Come get me
PLEASE,
...

Help Me

Those words, usually sweet
Dripping with honey
They fill my heart with joy and glee
Kind or sometimes funny

But when truly needed, they vanish
Replaced by swords
That destroy and famish
Where do you find such poisonous words

When I need something to wrap my hurt
You stab me further
to draw more blood
Keep on reminding me that I'm a burden

You call me cruel
You call me selfish
You call me a failure
You call me worthless

I love you more than life itself
Yet you **** the life I have left
Yes I agree I might not be as great as you
but I still don't deserve this abuse

After everything is over,
when my heart is shattered
you ask what you have done
what is the matter

Oh my dear sister, if only you knew
how much these words hurt
when they come from the person that is your whole world

But you don't...
yet I still love you
because I'm supposed to

This is a land where,
Everyone loves the dark
broken dreams written on the stars

Here, no happy souls are in sight
those who reside here, are the broken one's only
For this is the land of the lonely

Damaged souls live here,
Those who never found true friends
Who have to be alone till the end

This is the land where I was born
This is the land where I belong
And if you feel that  you do too,
Then come along

Together we can reside'
Where no happy souls are in sight
the broken ones only'
We'll live in the land of the lonely

Standing beneath a thundering rainy sky
A similar storm of thoughts raging inside me
Like birds trapped in a cage
My emotions are struggling to be free

Like clouds flooding a piece of land
Have finally went away leaving it dry
My eyes have stopped watering
Because no tears are left to cry

Like a volcano silent for ages
Has burst out of a sudden
My heart's door, which has been closed for so long
Has burst open in a fit of rage by emotions and burden

Like all the fallen autumn leaves
Taken by the wind, far away
My courage has also left me
Leaving space for fear to stay

There once was a little girl
Always smiling just perfect
Had friends, family just everything
She was loved by everyone else
She knew how to love herself
Surrounded by myths and sweet lies
day by day, year by year, time flies

Soon she grew up
By the expectations of society she was surrounded
Upon learning the awful truths left dumbfounded
Trying to fit in with everyone one else she forgot how to love herself

the orange rising sun, the golden clouds
I see them everyday
Yet the sight always takes my breath away

The chirping f the birds at dawn break
the rustling of the tree leaves
These sound bring me serenity
they bring me peace

The wind before the rain
touches my hands, hair and face
It calms my mind
It brings me true delight

The pitter-patter of the raindrops
On the pavement and the ground
From the depths of my heart I love this sound
To stand beneath this shower gives me a joy that knows no bounds

And as I see the beauty of nature
I realize I can never write
something so beautiful on paper

When I was seven, I was afraid of the dark
My biggest enemies were the moon and stars
So, to sleep better at night
I had a night light

Now I’m fourteen and I can’t stand the light
Now that’s the enemy I got to fight
I am scared of the day
Because I can’t stand what people have to say

I love the night
Because then, I get a break from the fight
Don’t have to hide my tears
Don't have to face my fears

I now realize, in the dark
under the blanket of stars
You don't have to hide your scars
Because no one can see
just for a few hours, in the dark
I'm free

"you are so cheerful
but they don't see my tears

"you are so brave'
but they don't see my fears

" you are so nice"
but they don't see the smiles I fake

"you are so calm"
but they don't see my rage

No, they don't see...

How I am Lying and Dying
And I can't stop Crying
How it hurts Every Single Day
And I can't chase the pain away
How I Scream and Shout
But i can't find a way out..

I don't know what to do
Is it just me or....
do you feel the same too?

Always feeling like a failure I'm so tired
fears, tears , anxiety burn inside of me like fire
through my words I wanna inspire that is my only desire
in and out, the darkness swallows me
caught between reality and fantasy
burning in  fire, turning to ash, see
falling deep down with no one to catch me
And they say life is easy,

The expectation and pressure of society surrounds me
The burden of my failures drown me
My head is underwater but no one can see
I cry out so loud but no one hears me
The lonliness and self doubt tears me
I scream and scream but no one hears me
The scream of silence has no sound
it breaks me but is unheard all around
I cry and shout but in vain
So I have no choice but to smile through the pain

There is a hurricane inside of me
It slowly destroys me
All my friends just use
The guilt consumes me
Once more my heart is shattered
Felt on the ground, scattered
So now i have to clean up this mess,
And pretend i'm fine
Deal with this **** one more time

Will this ever end
even though i'm breathing,
I am already dead
And they say life is easy

I believe our life is a tapestry
made by different colorful
threads of destiny

Each thought, action and word
represents a thread
When woven together ,
the tapestry spreads

I have to choose which thread to weave
and which one to discard
which one will be woven first
and which in the last

But whatever I choose,
I have to choose wisely
for it will determine
My life story

This life woven in in a tapestry,
By the threads of destiny

From,
paper boats,
paper planes,
pillow forts
and outdoor games

To, depression and anxiety,
Fake friendships, toxic relationships
crying, lying and fighting

oh how times change

From genuine smiles
and endless dreams
To empty eyes
and silent screams

Oh how times change

I have no smiles ,
only tears
I have no dreams,
only fears

My eyes no longer shine
But I always lie
'Oh I'm fine"

This is my life

I had high hopes as I kid
of what I could be
If only the younger me could know
how badly I failed her
I wished to touch the stars
but I am a nobody
I am worthless
Worthless, worthless, worthless