A silence that screams
A smile that lies
A brain that dreams
A heart that hides

Eyes that water
Hands that shake
Words that slaughter
Laughter that's fake

A temper that rises
A sorrow that drowns
A hatred that despises
A fear that hounds

A storm so fast
The thunder so loud
A cliff so vast
The drop so foul

A scream that haunts
A fear that breeds
A heart that rots
A hatred that feeds

That's all I am in the end
Nothing more to see
Without a single friend
All alone, its just me

this heart of mine
used to trust everybody
once upon a time
now it can't trust anybody

after you broke it
betrayed it
mocked it
played  with it

you are gone
but it still suffers

You were fake friends no doubt
but I still catch myself missing you
you used me for your own gain
but I still miss you

I miss the secret notes passed in class
the games during the lunch break
the inside jokes , the silent laughs
I miss truth or dare and the staring contests

I miss the way I felt about you
the way you looked at me

Your name which was once familiar  in my mouth
now feels so distant , like the one of a stranger
we used to communicate by eyes only
but now you refuse to meet my eyes

you see me everyday in the corridor
but pass me by like a stranger
I know I should forget you
like you forgot me
but... I can't

I try to forget the past but sometimes ..
it still creeps up on me ..
.........................
I miss you, I miss ASA
I miss AAVICE

always in the shadows
never the one in the spotlight
always the helper
never the one to shine

always in second
never the first choice
always the thinker
never the voice

tear me down and break me
cause I don't matter
take my heart just to
leave it to shatter

I try my best to shine
but someone always shines brighter
I try and try
but I'm not a fighter

not in first and not in last
always somewhere in between
I', quite unremarkable
I'm never seen

My punishment for being kind,
too kind ,Was a curse
That I'd never know my own worth

I try to live life with this weight
But I'm falling apart
Guess it was fate
that I'd get punished for a golden heart

so here I am ,
feeling helpless,
feeling worthless

What a Lovely face,
lovely eyes,
lovely hair,
and an even lovelier smile

Your beauty astounds me
your kindness so vast,
your memories surround me
I am falling steady and fast

I would be lying if I say
You don't give me butterflies
that I light up when I'm you every day
Light up so bright like fireflies

What a lovely face,
lovely eyes,
lovely hair,
and an even lovelier smile

the orange rising sun, the golden clouds
I see them everyday
Yet the sight always takes my breath away

The chirping f the birds at dawn break
the rustling of the tree leaves
These sound bring me serenity
they bring me peace

The wind before the rain
touches my hands, hair and face
It calms my mind
It brings me true delight

The pitter-patter of the raindrops
On the pavement and the ground
From the depths of my heart I love this sound
To stand beneath this shower gives me a joy that knows no bounds

And as I see the beauty of nature
I realize I can never write
something so beautiful on paper