When I was seven, I was afraid of the dark
My biggest enemies were the moon and stars
So, to sleep better at night
I had a night light

Now I’m fourteen and I can’t stand the light
Now that’s the enemy I got to fight
I am scared of the day
Because I can’t stand what people have to say

I love the night
Because then, I get a break from the fight
Don’t have to hide my tears
Don't have to face my fears

I now realize, in the dark
under the blanket of stars
You don't have to hide your scars
Because no one can see
just for a few hours, in the dark
I'm free

"you are so cheerful
but they don't see my tears

"you are so brave'
but they don't see my fears

" you are so nice"
but they don't see the smiles I fake

"you are so calm"
but they don't see my rage

No, they don't see...

How I am Lying and Dying
And I can't stop Crying
How it hurts Every Single Day
And I can't chase the pain away
How I Scream and Shout
But i can't find a way out..

I don't know what to do
Is it just me or....
do you feel the same too?

Everything is aching
My heart is breaking
I'm suffocating
I'm crying for help
Because i can't save myself
Help me please

I'm dying
I'm crying
But i have to keep smiling
It's getting on my nerves
I'm just so hurt
But this scar is not the first

I have to keep up this mask
It's a difficult task
I see no light, everything is dark
Everyone feels like an enemy
I'm drowning in jealousy
Please Help Me
.............

I can see nothing
Everything is hurting
I don't even know me
Can't find me
Come get me
PLEASE,
...

Help Me

Standing beneath a thundering rainy sky
A similar storm of thoughts raging inside me
Like birds trapped in a cage
My emotions are struggling to be free

Like clouds flooding a piece of land
Have finally went away leaving it dry
My eyes have stopped watering
Because no tears are left to cry

Like a volcano silent for ages
Has burst out of a sudden
My heart's door, which has been closed for so long
Has burst open in a fit of rage by emotions and burden

Like all the fallen autumn leaves
Taken by the wind, far away
My courage has also left me
Leaving space for fear to stay