I'm trapped
lost in the shadows
of despair,
I'm lonely and sad

I don't have a childhood
but a trauma hood

I only have myself
and the vulture that surrounds my existence

aching and hungering for me to decay into a silhouette of what could have been my greatest potential

I,
once lively
full of personality
and greatness

Now,
a withered shadow
empty of balance
unsteady
from the stressors in front
and behind her
left by grace

i get so messed up in my mind

I keep thinking horrible thoughts at the wrong times

it weird's me out
and
I am so ashamed...

I feel so disgusting
nasty.
disdained.

the unbearable, questionable things that cloud my thoughts

unspeakable,

I will never say them

Is it just me
or when your sad
do you lose your mind

do you want to eat?
the feelings out of yourself
just to feel...

something other than the pain

why is your spirit
in my head

what a celestial experience

I saw you
it wasnt quite deja vu
but it was interesting how our thoughts moved

Intertwined were our minds
I believe it was the divine

Our souls are calling for each other
maybe this is our sign?

I don´t think im dull
I don´t think im lazy
you are lucky to have a person like me

Iḿ just contemplating
my thoughts
wondering where i went wrong
We did something so amazing
when´d it turn into an argument
where you left me blazing
I just want to love you
I want us to be calm
I gave you everything
and you gave me nothing at all
you put salt into old wounds
on my feet
did you want me to trip and fall?