I'm boiling with anger and jealousy
why does he talk to you
but not talk to me

I shouldn't be angry because he was never mine
nor did I take the time
to show him who I am
but I still feel such indescribable pain

"Wake up and smell the smoke"
That's what my friends said to me
before I awoke

Those that say
they aren’t emotional
Show the most emotions

Those that think they show the most emotions
Are the most together?

I apologize for the things I don’t realize  
How my actions change the way you see me  Through your eyes
The way I go from sunshine to cold hard ice  If only I knew that my listening ears  
Would have sufficed  
The tension between two

Lies and deception
What some use to create a sense of perfection
It feels calm and it feels like it protects  
But some might see through your incompetent dialect

I'm screaming in silence
Wondering to myself
Why is life like this
How come I can't see you
And would you even want me too

I just wanna be with you

He’ll be the death of me
I was just fine without him
Then I got my seasonal depression
With him now on my mind
I just keep thinking about him
Wondering if he’s thinking back
If I see him again
I hope he can reciprocate
Cause I wouldn’t know how to make of anything else
I’m losing my mind
Losing all composure
I keep wondering if i'm ever getting closure