I dont go for people who are perfect
I’m a fixer, a problem solver, a helper, a carer
It’s in my nature to fix other people’s problems

Everyone is a puzzle.  Some people have more pieces missing than others.  I will help them put themselves back together

In turn I feel broken myself. I don’t feel fixed, I don’t feel whole
I wish someone would love me, take care of me, listen to me, be there for me the way I do to others

So yes I’m a problem solver. But sometimes I wish I didn’t have the aching void that I’ve learnt to fill with other people’s happiness instead of my own

It feels as if I’m dreaming.
Now that you’re gone it feels as if life has lost meaning
I feel empty and hollow
With all this grief I must swallow

I catch ghostly glimpses of you in the corner of my eye
In the breezes I hear your purr and your sigh
I can’t accept that I’ve lost you, my light
I imagined a future with you that’s now lost in sight

Pale and sickly, ghastly thin
I saw the once bright green of your eyes begin to dim
I clung to the last bit of hope that you could be healed
I cry as my fate without you is sealed

That boy who you called weird next door
Is struggling to support his family of four
His mothers been bed bound with depression for weeks
And each night his blood runs as alone he weeps

And that girl you said was living the high life
Comes home each night to her father beating his wife
She cries and screams but always loses
Each morning with makeup she covers the bruises

That quiet boy who you called gay
Is overcome by thoughts of harm each day
He hates himself, his wrists are scarred
With thoughts of death his mind is barred

That girl you saw who you called obese
She starves herself without release
She can’t stand to see herself In a mirror
Her tears have stained on her pillow

Tw!

Sticks and stones
Skin and bones

Only starving to please you
What did I ever do?

The man in the mirror I don’t recognise
Looking gaunt with tears in her eyes

Sticks and stones
Skin and bones

Never eating
Feeling defeated

Weak and thin
Frail as sin

Fainting and headaches
I’ll do what it takes

to keep up this pretty little lie

The mirror spews its harsh abuse
I’m starting to think it’s telling the truth

Sticks and stones
Skin and bones

Why do I starve to feel normal
Can you accept me the way that I am?

I’m tired
I’m trying
But inside, I’m dying

Please help me I’m drowning
You just look at me, frowning
And say that I’m fine

You don’t take me seriously
My mental health is killing me
Oh but you say it’s untrue

“You’re just a child”
“Your imagination is wild”
Please believe me, I’m not so little anymore

This system is flawed
If only you knew how I fought
With anxiety every day

“You need to meet expectations”
“Oh wow congratulations”
“We’ve driven you completely insane”

Music is my escape
My mind it reshapes

It softens the pain of reality
And blocks out life’s brutality

There are thousands of choices
Trillions of voices

All looking to soothe your pain
wanting to calm your brain

So when your head feels crowded
And your thoughts are clouded

If you feel oh so alone
Put on some headphones

Let the music dissolve your troubles
Your worry float away like bubbles

Lose yourself in a melody

Do I love him do I love him not
Are these feelings real 'cause forgot
How to fall in love again
In this blank in-between will I remain?

Around my heart I’ve built up walls
Will you be the one to make them fall
I never can be quite certain
If you’re my friend,soulmate or another person

I feel hopeless in this situation
Pent up with sadness and desperation
Wishing, hoping, yearning
For someone to fill my soul that is burning

After the one that broke heart
I can’t seem to put back the parts
Will I ever be the same I was?
For the sake of our future I hope it does.

Oh so feeble is a heart that’s damaged
Can love from it be wrought and ravaged?