It took losing you to realize, I want you
It look losing you to realize I have been a fool to you
It look losing you to see it was my own fault
That I was pushing the car to go overboard.

It may be broken and hard to salvage
But I intend on working hard to bring it back from its garbage
For even trash and broken things can turn out even more beautiful than it was in beginning
I promise you,this would not be our story's ending.

I didn't see the vision of the life we could build
I was consumed by all the bitterness that I didn't search within
You were trying to save me
Yet I constantly rejected it
As if you meant nothing to me at all.

I was a fool to ever let you go
I did damage to you that you never deserved
I'm trying my best to pull myself together
So I can get another chance at building that life you so desired.

The journey back to you would take alot, no doubt
Let me prove to you I can handle the load
And make you proud one day of being your girl.

You deserved more than I gave you
You are more than the broken pieces which I left you to pick up on your own
I made you feel like you weren't enough
When all this time, you were more than anyone I have ever known

I treated your flaws as a shame
Your love I took for granted and broke all my promises
You were really not to blame for why we departed
It was my demons that tore us apart
Now I live with shame.

I made you think that I wanted someone heartless to love me
Because that is the only time I could feel love, when I was chasing it endlessly
Yet there you were gentle and nurturing to me all on your own
When all I ever did was make you feel like my love was something you had to work harder to earn

I am sorry you had to consume my toxic traits
I am sorry I left you depleted and wanting to escape
I am sorry you now have to heal from me
I am sorry I wasn't the person you wanted me to be.

Sorry seems to be overused at this point
But I hope one day I can be that girl you always raving about
Free of all her demons that let her miss out
On one of the best persons she could have ever found, without a doubt.