It hits you suddenly
Burdens of grief
Piling in a moment of joy
A sad realisation settling in the creases of your smile
Their gone , but life moved on
Within that moment you press at your throat
And hope no one can hear you heaving
No one likes a party pooper afterall
Life moved on , so why haven't you
Suddenly your words feel thick
And a silent cacophony dwells at your feet
No one notices as you leave the party
Life moved on so why would you stay
Then the doors pile in with people pressing the edge of your chin
And you scream
Hoping someone would hear your plea
Please sympathize with me
I'm battling a lifetime of grief

In the eyes of a
Week
A moment
A connection
And
A conflict
I had had managed to fit
Every part of your love
That would ruin me
And
Before the eyes of our passions dwells
On the nightfall
Of our imperfections
I decided it would be easier
To watch you leave

As the brittle leaves of our bones
Fell
And words could hardly explain our
Existence
It feverishly fed on our death
But it was alive
So who was there to blame?
And for the first time I prayed
Which was funny
Since I didn't believe in God
And sadly he reminded me that
It should stay that way

December was fun
...
When everyone was still alive

It hadn't even hit me yet , the urge to feel , to love , to live , yet here I was hating it before it even begun .

Sometimes...
I'd dim the lights
Close my eyes
And huff of "cherry peach lemon"
Give myself a honey flavoured daze
And imagine my soulmate



No one came to mind