I dreamt of you again last night
haven't done that in a few months
but **** does it hurt










I wonder if you ever dream of me

hey guess what
i won











i really did love you more

i'd **** to talk to you again
but the thought of hearing your voice
it makes me feel dead inside
not that i'd even have the choice









but oh how i wish..

so did i ever mean anything to you?












cuz it sure doesn't feel like it

i don't think ill ever love someone
as much as i loved you











and i don't know if i want to

I've been through worse
so much worse
and I survived
so I know I can now too

I can make it

but here's the thing,
its not one problem
or some huge thing
weighing me down

its the little things
the way I'm always alone
every time I see them happier without me
the way I don't sleep anymore
every mistake I make
the way I've given up on being clean
every person who leaves, one by one
the way I've lost all energy
every night I barely pull through
all of it

its wearing me down
little by little
it's drowning me

a small stream
slowly corroding my mind, body and soul
till I'm destroyed
a shell of who I once was
so utterly useless
that there's no point anymore

it's not that I cant survive
it's that I don't want to anymore