I can not resist the temptation
Every time she contacts me on the phone
The tone of her voice seduces me
Knowing she is on her own
Saying no is not an option
An invitation i cannot refuse
We both understand the consequences
When i put my key in the door
The scene is set , the fire glows
Conversation finally comes to an end
Feelings and emotions
Take control of the situation
We both know where it ends

Am i a piece of jewellery
He can put on or take off
Likes it when it suits him
Hides it when it's not
I should be wearing it
For all the world to see
But i feel i’m in the shadows
Where no one else can see.

Beware the one’s who lie
The one’s who seldom smile
Beware the one’s  with no eye contact
The one’s that cannot look into yours
Beware the one’s who are never at fault
When you know its always theirs
Beware the one’s who don’t say the truth
Because they will always lie .

It takes someone special to become a friend
Someone you feel at ease with
Someone you can talk to and confide in
Someone over time that gains your trust
Someone you can count on
When things become tough
Someone that when things do work out
Will still be there for you ,
No need to ever doubt

When i first saw her
She shone in the crowd
But i was the one that stood there
Invisible to all around
Time made people leave
Leaving me on my own
Had no choice but talk to her
Some things are ment to be .

Everyones life is a book
It has a Beginning and an end
All the chapters are laid out in order
This is what we follow.
We don’t get to choose the beginning
We don’t get to choose the end
But we can change the order of living
Depending on who we befriend
I’ve changed some friends in the past
Sometimes you have to do
But you are my special one
And i will never let you go .

I once planed my future
It didn’t go the way i those
Lost the love i lived for
Had to reset the rest of my life.
My heart took me on adventures
Some of which, i’m not proud
But in the end i mellowed
And finally settled down.
Now in my twilight , i recall it all
I finally got to realise
That my heart was always in control
So all i can say is this
Time will sort all out
Your heart will show you the way
And you will find what you search for .

I’m blessed to have friends around me
A circle of friendship and love
It gives me reassurance and peace
A circle of security and calm
It gives me the confidence to contact them
Whatever comes my way
Knowing if i cannot sort it
Collectively we will .

Table for two with an empty chair
Wish you were here, not over there
One day luck will shine upon me
When you will sit across from me
In what is usually an empty chair .

Two hearts that once were lost
Found each other at last
It took time to find each other
But their hearts now help forget the past
They both  fought their battles
But they came through intact
Now they hope true love prevails
To make a future that lasts .

When my life on earth is over
Don’t know where i will go
But i know my memories
Will be with you forever more
Memories of verses ,smiles and stary eyes
Chatting at the table, drinking glasses of wine
Lovely conversation like long lost friends
Hope you stay in contact ,
Don’t want this ever to  end.

When you walk on the beach
Take care where you tread
Hidden amongst the pebbles
Are hearts of crimson red

Hearts left by lovers
That eventually turned to stone
They couldn’t come together
So now lie here all alone

But when you do find one
Treat it will loving care
Because someone once left it
Thats why it was there

I cannot sleep , so i cannot dream
Of somewhere i want to be
I can only think of where i am
And where i have always been
I cannot move forward
Don't want to go back
Cannot stay where i am
Because i’m stuck in a rut
Something will change
I do not know when
But when that day comes
I hope it makes me dream again .

Two x’s  on their own
To some don’t mean a lot
But i have always used them
Since a time i cannot forget .
I’m careful who receives  them
They have to be special to me
You will always receive them
Because your friendship means so much to me .

Love can make you happy
Love can make you smile
Love can make you vulnerable
Love can make you cry
But when you meet your love
You won’t be vulnerable , and won’t  cry
But it will make you happy , and also make you smile 🙂

I hear it in her voice every time we get to talk
I see it in her eyes every time she looks  into mine
I see it in her smile that gets even broader
I sense it in her heart that beats even faster
I feel in her body every time  she gives me a hug
Love is an emotion that cannot lie
Her love so strong , brings tears to my eyes .

I cannot let her go
I cannot let her down
When i needed someone
She stepped up to the line
Cared for me when i needed company
Loved me when I felt alone
Meets me when convenient
Hold’s me close when i need a hug
Now it’s one day at a time
Careful steps along the way
Now i stand with her ,as she did me
I cannot let her go

You came into my world
And opened up my heart
Many tears and time for reflection
Stopped me from falling apart
My heart was cleansed of shadows
You lit up emotions that for years were hid
Made me meet hearts,that now are new friends
Yours is top of my list

You play your part when your on show
As if nothing is out of place
Keeping a smile on your face
Everything normal to all who don’t know
But deep in your heart there is always a tear
That no one can ever see
Wishing all the time
That the show was the real deal .

My heart was hurt , lost all at sea
In a storm of emotion that no one could see
I had no choice but to find a sheltered cove
In s harbour of calm that protected me with her love .
Somewhere i could rest , and take time to recover
Before eventually i returned into the arms of another .

I need to keep you positive
In these troubling times
Life has to take its course.
All i can do at the moment
Is to be your loyal friend.
Someone who understands what you are going through.
Keep faith in the ones you trust
Don't keep them in the void of silence
Don’t keep them out of the loop.
Because when this chapter of your life is over ,
And a new one about to start
You will lean on their friendship and love
To help you find your path.

Head on my pillow
Cant get to sleep
Staring at the ceiling
Feeling my eyes weep
Tears of loneliness, tears of fear
Wandering what the future holds
Love left me , feeling alone
Yearning for company to keep me warm
I cant wait forever , but i have no choice
Love has to find me , fed up of listening to my own voice .

I should feel guilt but i don’t
Is it my heart keeping it out
Taking revenge because it was hurt
Or maybe it’s because my heart is so full of love
And wont let guilt play a part ?

You play your part when your on show
As if nothing is out of place
Always with a lovely smile on your face
Behaving normal to all who don’t know
But deep in your heart there is always a tear
That no one can ever see,
Wishing all the time
That the show was the real deal.

Even though i read your words
It’s not the same as reading your eyes
When i can sit and listen to you speak
Knowing full well you tell no lies
Feelings you hide well behind a wall of words
But your wall is made of glass
Words mean nothing when i see it all
Told in your beautiful eyes .

Last night i shed tears
Not for me , but for you
I felt your struggle
I felt the pain
But crying is not a weakness
It’s just an emotional release
A way my heart chooses
To display how it feels

Your smile never changes
Your eyes always shine
I hope you see the same reflected in mine
Time changes all of us
Not something we can stop
But our friendship stays the same
No matter who , no matter what.

When i became a father
I was gifted a set of skills
A gift of love and kindness
That only fathers bring
But something draws me towards you
This never happened to me before
It’s like a magnet drawing me closer
To help you like one of my own
I don't know your past
Always said i would never ask
Maybe one day you will tell me
Why this magnetism works?

We all have a front , some even a mask
To shield ourselves from the past
To put across false impressions
While hiding the truth .
Some day someone will enter your life and your heart
Then that will be the beginning
Of understanding , and hopefully unveiling
A lovely person that hides behind your mask.

Lines of words appear on my screen
Words created in time of sadness
But my creative mind is in another space
With a friend who suffers in silence
One day the sun will rise
Her worries will fade away,
Like mist on a spring morning
Then her heart will feel the warmth
Of love in beautiful sunshine

Do not retreat into the shadows
Stay out in the bright sunlight
Bask in the light of new friendships
Eventually all will turn out alright.
Time will be a factor , time always is.
I know your heart at the moment is saddened
Believe me warmth will re-enter your heart.
One day someone will enter your life
Who you cannot get out of your mind
One who will care and love you ,
And will be thoughtful and absolutely kind .

Why are people so greedy
Why cant they be kind
Why do they worship money
When money cannot buy you friends
This is why i’m so wealthy
Loving friends i have
I may not have loads of money
But money will never buy the friends i have .

Why do i feel so lonely
No matter where i am
Why do i overthink scenarios
That have not yet entered my life  
I cannot make up my mind
My plan is all over the place
I’m afraid to make the wrong decisions
Afraid of loosing face
No one can help me
I’ve built my wall too high
I cannot accept advice
My mind has no space left

So i’m left to my own decisions
This is getting me down
Timing now takes  over
Not looking forward to the phone call
A call that will put me in a corner
I’ll then have to decide
Do i stay with the past beside me
Or seek a life somewhere else
Never have i felt so lonely
Scared of a future unknown
Can i start again with my memories
This is all i think about
When i cry at night , when i’m all alone .

Why does love cause me pain
Is it the thought that i will not see her again
Or even hear her lovely voice
Unable to gaze into sparkling eyes
But her smile remains with me
Comforts me every day
Like the memories in my mind
That cause my heart so much pain.

My reservoir of tears
Ran dry many years ago
A time i cannot forget
But since i got to know you
My eyes again started to tear
They do not shed tears for me
They shed tears for you
Now i tear in laughter
When you say funny things
These are tears of happiness  
That warm my heart within.

Love is like a river
It has to take it’s course
In the case of a river , the sea
In the case of love , a heart
And if the course gets altered
It matters not to me
Because my love will always find
It’s way to a heart like yours.