Today i returned with my flowers
To a place i go every year
Stand by a cold slab of stone
Read inscriptions and stand all alone .
But this year it was different
Remembered all that was good
Times of love and laughter
Of a young woman that kept me warm
My heart will never forget
Of a love i once held in my arms
Time does play it’s part in healing
But today only memories are left in my heart.

On a cold winters evening
Watching the fire burn
Listening to the fire crackle
Staring at the fire glow
You played a music soundtrack
Your hand caressed my face
Eyes made contact with mine
Your smile lit up the room
The music so soft and tender
The words still stay in my mind
My defences were dismantled
Our emotions controlled the night
My heart still burns crimson red .

Sometimes we have to listen to our heart
And do what is right for ourselves
We cannot live other peoples lives
No matter who they are,
Or how much we love them
We owe it to ourselves to do what is best
Sometimes in our own interest
It’s not selfish, sometimes we have to learn
To love who we are
If you don’t love yourself
How can we learn to love others

Overthinking everything
Trying to work out all scenarios
Reaching different conclusions
My emotions on overload
How do i say what’s on my mind and in my heart
My little one’s heart is just the start
How will i explain i’ve got to leave
Will she understand or hate me
The truth i must say , for i love her so much
I hope when she grows up , she will forgive me .

Don’t hide in the shadows
Don’t stay in silence
Reach out to friends
Ones who love you so dear
Talk to them, tell the truth
You will probably find
That they all want to help you
Help you find peace
Help you find closure
Wherever this ends
Don’t forget your friends.

You opened your heart
Let me into your life
A leap of faith that took courage
Not easy , when you told your past
But now you are in the present
Looking to a new start
I am humbled that you chose me
To trust what you keep in your heart .

Thought about it before
Talked about it to
Now maybe i need to
Don’t know what to do
Afraid to take the option
Damed if i do , damed if i don’t
I need to make my mind up
Give it a try , to give me a break
Maybe then i’ll understand
Exactly where i am
And exactly what i have to do .