When I fall into despair
or fail
or feel anxious
or am betrayed
I run for thirty minutes on my old car
Midway up the mountain
while chatting quietly
they greet me with sparkling smiles
the seven lakes
I stroll with them
Today
it was nothing special
just an ordinary, trivial matter
But I wanted to die
Believing they loved me
and would accept me
I went there
and gradually drew closer
the closer I got
the more they greeted me
with love's rejection
and for the first time
It rippled and said:
"do not try to become one
keep your distance and love"
through that beautiful rejection
I survived.