Maybe you didn't make me hate the world
Maybe you didn't make me hate myself
Maybe you didn't make me jealous
Maybe you didn't make me alone
But you made me cry
And a father should never make his daughter cry

I used to cry every night until I fell asleep
I can't even remember those nights
I only remember how it felt to have this hole in my chest
To not be able to stop the tears
To muffle the sobs so no one would hear
Maybe I forgot those nights, but not the pain you made me feel

Maybe you didn't make me hate the world
Maybe you didn't make me hate myself
Maybe you didn't make me jealous
Maybe you didn't make me alone
But you made me cry
And a father should never make his daughter cry

Before you left
I never had to learn the difference between a father and a dad
I never had to pretend I had a dad in the picture when people asked me
I never knew what it felt like to not celebrate Father's Day
But I did have to learn
And pretend
And know what that feels like
Because you left

Maybe you didn't make me hate the world
Maybe you didn't make me hate myself
Maybe you didn't make me jealous
Maybe you didn't make me alone
But that's because I didn't let you
And there will come a time when
I won't let you make me cry

You keep me at arm's length because I'm not enough for you
You keep me at arm's length because you don't know if I'm what you need, but you don't want to lose me either
You keep me at arm's length so that if I stab you in the back, you'll see it coming
You keep me at arm's length because you've built up a wall that will only allow parts of me in
You hold me at a distance so that when your insecurities put space between us, you won't even notice
You hold me at a distance because you're scared that I'm exactly what you're looking for
But what you don't realize is that pushing me away only makes me want to fight for you more
With every unspoken word that falls between us
I lose respect
Don't show me you care only to take it away when a better opportunity comes along
Don't tell me I can come to you with my problems only to become one of them
Of course you want more than what I can offer because good is never good enough
If you deserve happiness
What do I deserve?

Hollow inside
Hollow I hear, hollow i feel
Hollow I am
Hollow is me
Many a times I’ve put on a mask
Like second nature to me
But this time it’s different
When you crack open a peanut
And take the shell off, it still looks the same
Just without the fake layer
I look happy, or sad
I feel happy or sad
But I’ve learned it’s just a shell
No matter how real it feels in the moment
It’s just a fake layer
Inside the shell is nothing
Hollow inside
Hollow I hear, Hollow I feel
Hollow I am
Hollow is me