I choose
All of you people
To be my friends
Also we have a lot
In common
I am  a Christian
And you people
Are also Christian
From birth
To adult life
Also People I am
God’s poet
And you people
Are also a poet
I go to bed early every
Single night
And you people
Also go to bed early
The next day I wake
Up at 11:00 am
All of you people
Also wake up
At 11:00 am
Also I have my shower
First thing in the morning
I put some body wash
In my sponge
Then I  rub  my
Sponge all over my body
Now all I have to do
Is rinse the body wash
That is in my body
When I  finished my
Shower
I turn my shower of
Then I also dry my body
With a bath towel
Now is time for me
To shave my face
With the electric
Shaver
Now I  will get dress
Into my casual clothes
All of you people
Also have you shower
First thing in the morning
You turn you shower on
Then you go into the shower
You put the body wash
In the sponge
Now you rub the sponge
All over you body
Then when it is finished
You rinsed the body wash
Now is time to turn
The shower of
Now you need to dry you body
With a bath towel
Then you all will shave
With the electric shaver
Finally it is now time for you all
To get dress
Into your
Casual clothes
All of you people
Buy only second hand clothes
And you people can’t afford
To buy designers clothes
Because they are very expensive
And you wear three times the
Designer clothes
Then after you wash it
You put in the dryer
But when you remove
Out of the dryer
They look like hell
All of you people
Pray every night
For my father
That had made you
With his holy hands
All of you people
I also pray for my father
Every single night

I close my eyes
I lift my hands unto the Lord
And I start to pray in silence
I pray that we will see an end to this war
I pray that the women will give birth to healthy babies
I pray that the women will be able to breastfeed their babies
I pray that they stop child labour in factories in the third world
I pray that the people with mental illness will be cured
I pray that you will bring soon the spring
I pray that we will feed the people that are starving in the third world
I pray that people get an education in the world
I pray that people will have a roof over their heads
I pray that people will respect each other
I pray that people won't be alone anymore
I pray that people will learn to love each other
I pray that people will pray for one another
I pray that the Lord make a miracle in every bodies life
I pray that the Lord give the blind people their vision back
I pray that the wild life can be saved
I pray that no body will be ashamed of their illness anymore
I pray that no body will take their own life anymore
I pray that we have clean water to drink
I pray that we put an end to violence
I pray that the people who have kids will give them love
I pray that the people who have kids will receive love back from their kids
I pray that the people who have kids will not spank their kids
I pray that the people who have kids will teach their kids what is right and what is wrong
I pray that the people don't **** each other
I pray that people will learn to take better care of their health
I pray that people will learn to accept people for who they are
I pray that people will control their anger
I pray that people will look after one another
I pray that people will learn to make friends
I pray that people will have their own style of clothes
I pray that people will look after their hygiene
I pray that people will eat healthier
I pray that people will learn to trust themselves
I pray that people will not create enemies
I pray that people will love themselves
I pray that people be responsible for their behavior
I pray that people will have patience with one another
I pray that people will be grateful for their things they have
I pray that people will have health
I pray that people will learn to save their money

I am coming out
Of my depression
Finally
I lived with depression
For a long time
I was born with depression
But today   I came out of my depression
Because my father came and
Healed me from depression

I cried for help for so many days now
And I am not sure if help is on the way
Right now  
I don't give up hope
I hope that God will come soon
And wipe of the tears from my eyes
With a  toilette paper
Also I know that I must have some sad
Days in my life
So I got to appreciate the happy days
Also when I cried I  cried  with the door
O f my bedroom room closed
And I stay all day crying the blues

There are so many
People that are going
Through that Identity crisis
Right now
Some are Jewish
And they are the holocaust survivors
They had lost there family in the war
They had to choose
Who would live
And who would die in the gas
Chambers
There Children had to go
Through the gas chambers
And that was very sad to see
Also the disable kids would
Go through the gas chambers
And their parents had suffered
So much
Today I pay my respect for
The Jews that had lost there
Kids in there war
Thanks God the war is over
But they will never forget
How much they suffered
In the war

There are so many
People that are going
Through that Identity crisis
Right now
Some are Jewish
And they are the holocaust survivors
They had lost there family in the war
There had to choose
Who would live
And who would die in the gas
Chambers
There Children had to go
Through the gas chambers
And that was very sad to see
Also the disable kids would
Go through the gas chambers
And there parents had suffered
So much
Today I pay my respect for
The Jews that had lost there
Kids in there war
Thanks God the war is over
But they will never forget
How much they suffered
In the war

There are so many
People that are going
Through that Identity crisis
Right now
Some are Jewish
And they are the holocaust survivors
They had lost there family in the war
There had to choose
Who would live
And who would die in the gas
Chambers
There Children had to go
Through the gas chambers
And that was very sad to see
Also the disable kids would
Go through the gas chambers
And there parents had suffered
So much
Today I pay my respect for
The Jews that had lost there
Kids in there war
Thanks God the war is over
But they will never forget
How much they suffered
In the war

I did it
I came out of the closet
And got a life to live
I have friends
My friends respect me
I respect them also
Without friends, I can’t live
Because my life would be empty
I did it
I pray for my friends every day
And they pray for me also
I did it
I put a smile on my face
And my friends saw it
They tell me I got a beautiful smile
I did it
I worked on solving my own problems
Because I put it of for a long time
And it was a hard task to do
I also have some anger issues to work on

did it
I came out of the closet
And got a life to live
I have friends
My friends respect me
I respect them also
Without friends, I can’t live
Because my life would be empty
I did it
I pray for my friends every day
And they pray for me also
I did it
I put a smile on my face
And my friends saw it
They tell me I got a beautiful smile
I did it
I worked on solving my own problems
Because I put it of for a long time
And it was a hard task to do
I also have some anger issues to work on

Friend
I'd like to speak to you
About my father
Friend
It was my father
That made you in his image
Many years ago
And he placed you here on
Earth to live with other Christians
Just like me
Friend I know that I can't force you
To become a Christian just like me
Friend I hope that you make up you mind
And become A  Christian just like me
Friend don't you think that you are living
A lonely and miserable life
Without my father
I hope you come and accept
My father as you savior
Friend
My father had died in the cross
For you sins
Friend
You are also one of my
Father's Children

I do it for you
My father
Every night before
I go to sleep
I pray for you
And you answer my prayer
Right away
Father it was you
That made me with you
Holy hands
Many years ago
And you also placed
Me to live together
With the rest of you
Children
Father we just get along
With each other
I am the oldest children you made
With you holy hands
And you youngest children
Are all teenagers now
Father you also thought as how
To pray
And we also pray for each other
And you also answer our prayers
Yes father you have thought us
About our manners
And we use our manners
Every single day

I don’t know
Why I am worrying
About other’s people life
Than worrying about mine
I think I should worried about
My life first
Because I have bad health
That I need to take care of
Every single day
Also I take lots of medications
For my mental illness
Day and night
Also i am always going to bed
Early every night because I have
My sleeping schedule that I have
To follow
Yes sleeping is very important
To me
I have to sleep 7 hours each night
Because if I don’t get my 7 hours
Of sleep every night
I won’t be able to function the next day
Also in the morning
I do some work for my father
I work writing poems for my
Beloved father
And I never leave the work undone
I get to finish one after each other
And my father rewards me for a job well done
Also In the afternoon I go for a walk in the park
And while I walk in the park
I listing to the tune of the birds
Yes the birds singing takes my breath away

I don't know if I am going
To find somebody to love
Because I would love a girl friend
Right now
That would love me
For who I am
I know that there are women that wants a rich men
And all they think is about money
I don't think about money
I think more about my health
Because my health is very important to me
I don't know if the girl will understand that I have depression
Maybe she will not want a person that suffers from depression
I want a girl that is in her 50
I want a girl that will love me for who I am
I want a beautiful girl to marry
I hope that she will be the woman of my dreams
I hope that she will respect my opinion
And I will respect hers

I don’t know why
You stop loving me
All that I can say
Is that I am feeling
Hurt
I still have feelings for you
I am not telling you a lie
I am telling you the true
I don’t plan to live alone again
Because I don’t like to live alone
Also I don’t like to live in isolation
You are telling me to let you go
Because you want to be lonely
And free again
I hope you find all the things
That you dream of
And somebody else that
Will love you better than I  did
Yes it is our goodbye
To each other

I don’t know why
You stop loving me
All that I can say
Is that I am feeling
Hurt
I still have feelings for you
I am not telling you a lie
I am telling you the true
I don’t plan to live alone again
Because I don’t like to live alone
Also I don’t like to live in isolation
You are telling me to let you go
Because you want to be lonely
And free again
I hope you find all the things
That you dream of
And somebody else that
Will love you better than I  did
Yes it is our goodbye
To each other

I don’t know why
The fall ended
So fast
And the winter
Came quickly
Here on earth
Yes the winter
Is very long here in Canada
Also the winter is
Very cold also
I never go out
During the winter
For a walk outside
I never got used to the winter
Yet

I don’t know why
The Fall ended
So fast
And the winter
Came quickly
Here on earth
Yes the winter
Is very long here in Canada
Also the Winter is
Very cold also
I never go out
During the Winter
For a walk outside
I never got used to the winter
Yet

I don’t mind
Spending one night
Alone
Because
I have some work
That I have to do
For my God
I write lots of poems
For my God
And also my God
Gives a reward for
A job well done

I don’t mind
Spending one night
Alone
Because
I have some work
That I have to do
For my God
I write lots of poems
For my God
And also my God
Gives a reward for
A job well done

I don't need to whisper to my God
He is here beside me
And he is listening to what I have to say
Please let me win a little peace
Let me get out of this depression
Let me get out of this depression
Let me live again
Let me be myself again
It hurts me when I am not heard by others
I realize now that I can't always be the center of attraction
Because
Others need to talk also
I shouldn't do all the talking
But I do
Even though
I bored them all with my talking
I am not perfect
You have to understand that God
There are things I need to change
I don't need any more distractions in my life
I don't need any more violence in my life
God does it for me now
Give me a good night's rest
My mind is like a computer
Garbage out
Good thoughts in
There is plenty of misery in my life that you need to get rid of for me
I have to recognize the signs
I have to tell myself
I am angry
Give me peace of mind
Yes I carry the heaviest burdens on my shoulders
Somewhere I know love is waiting for me
Because I am
Holding back the tears
Imagine me being free from depression
What's going on inside my head?
I am calling for help
The sky is crying
God doesn't tear my clothes
God all it takes is a leap of faith
God take me to the river
I only have eyes for you God
God I am running out of lies to tell
God sugar spilled on the floor
What a mess it made
God hold me with your hand
God I need to use my imagination
God takes it to the limit

I don't need to whisper to my God
He is here besides me
And he is listening to what I have to say
Please let me win a little peace
Let me get out of this depression
Let me live again
Let me be myself again
It hurts me when I am not heard by others
I realize now that I can't always be the centre of attraction
Because
Others need to talk also
I shouldn't do all the talking
But I do
Even though
I bored them all with my talking
I am not perfect
You have to understand that God
There are things I need to change
I don't need any more distraction in my life
I don't need any more violence in my life
God do it for me now
Give me a good night rest
My mind is like a computer
Garbage out
Good thoughts in
There is plenty of misery in my life that you need to get rid of for me
I have to recognize the signs
I have to tell myself
I am angry
Give me peace of mind
Yes I carry the heaviest burdens on my shoulders
Somewhere I know love is waiting for me
Because I am
Holding back the tears
Imagine me being free from depression
What's going on inside my head?
I am calling for help
The sky is crying
God don't tear my clothes
God all it takes is a leap of faith
God take me to the river
I only have eyes for you God
God I am running out of lies to tell
God sugar spilled on the floor
What a mess it made
God hold me with your hand
God I need to use my imagination
God take it to the limit
I rather go blind
And not see the bad things I did
Because I am so ashamed of it God
How deep is the ocean God?
I'll be seeing you in my dreams
God in the morning the time seems to fly
It does me good
A good drink of water is all I need God
I have nobody else with me but you God
God you see my soul shining through
God I have to praise you like I should
God my friends stole the sun from my heart
God right here right now I am waiting for a miracle to come
God I need you so
My life would not be complete without you God
Oh God I need you so
That I could take my worries out of my mind
And feel free and at peace

I don't need to whisper to my God
He is here besides me
And he is listening to what
I have to say
Please let me win a little
Peace
Let me get out of this
Depression
Let me live again
Let me be
Myself again
It hurts me when
I am not heard by others
I realize now that I can't
Always be the center of attraction
Because
Others need to talk also
I should not do all the taking
Even thought
I Bored then all with
My talking
I am not perfect
You have to understand
That God
There are things I need
To change
I don't need anymore
Distraction in my life
I don't need anymore
Violence in my life
God do it for me now
Give me a good night rest
My mind is like a computer
Garbage out
Good thoughts in
There is plenty of misery
In my life
That you need to get rid of
For me
I have to recognize the signs
I have to tell myself
I am angry
I am sad
I am tired
Give me peace of
Mind God
Yes I carry the heaviest burdens
On my shoulders
Somewhere I know love is
Waiting for me
Because I am
Holding back the tears
Imagine me being
Free from
Depression
What's going on inside my head
I am calling for help
The sky is crying
God don't tear my clothes
Of my body
God all it takes is
A leap of faith
God take me to the river
I only have eyes for you
God I am running out lies
To tell
God sugar spilled  on the floor
What a mess it made
God hold me with
Your hand when we are crossing
The  street
God I need to use my
Imagination
God take it to the limit
I rather go blind
And not see the bad things
I did
Because I am so ashamed of
It God

I don't need to whisper to my God
He is here beside me
And he is listening to what I have to say
Please let me win a little peace
Let me get out of this depression
Let me live again
Let me be myself again
It hurts me when I am not heard by others
I realize now that I can't always be the center of attraction
Because
Others need to talk also
I shouldn't do all the talking
But I do
Even though
I bored them all with my talking
I am not perfect
You have to understand that God
There are things I need to change
I don't need any more distractions in my life
I don't need any more violence in my life
God does it for me now
Give me a good night's rest
My mind is like a computer
Garbage out
Good thoughts in
There is plenty of misery in my life that you need to get rid of for Me
I have to recognize the signs
I have to tell myself
I am angry
Give me peace of mind
Yes I carry the heaviest burdens on my shoulders
Somewhere I know love is waiting for me
Because I am
Holding back the tears
Imagine me being free from depression
What's going on inside my head?
I am calling for help
The sky is crying
God doesn't tear my clothes
God all it takes is a leap of faith
God take me to the river
I only have eyes for you God
God I am running out of lies to tell
God sugar spilled on the floor
What a mess it made
God hold me with your hand
God I need to use my imagination
God takes it to the limit
I rather go blind
And not see the bad things I did
Because I am so ashamed of it God
How deep is the ocean God?
I'll be seeing you in my dreams
God in the morning the time seems to fly
It does me good
A good drink of water is all I need God
I have nobody else with me but you God
God, you see my soul shining through
God I have to praise you as I should
God my friends stole the sun from my heart
God right here right now I am waiting for a miracle to come
God I need you so
My life would not be complete without you God
Oh God I need you so
That I could take my worries out of my mind
And feel free and at peace

I don't think you are
Strong enough to tell you friends
To stop hurting you
By calling you all the bad language
That exist in the universe
Also don't let people take advantage
By asking you for money
Please you have to be strong and firm
By telling no
You need that money for you
So you can live your life
Yes also they call you stingy
When you shop for clothes
Yes you have a budget
And you also can't go over the budget
Also you can only afford
To buy with your money
Used clothes
From a second hand store
Yes that is your style of clothes
That you love to wear
Every single day
Yes you don't know
Where all the years have gone
That you have grown old
Also you can't stop growing old
Because you father made life that way
Also we must still be happy
When the Summer arrives
After a long winter
Also our father brings the birds
Back home
That we have missed a long time
Also we have to be grateful for
All the things we have
We just don't need anymore
Material things
Also we can't take our money with us
When we die

I don't think you are
Strong enough to tell you friends
To stop hurting you
By calling you all the bad language
That exist in the universe
Also don't let people take advantage
By asking you for money
Please you have to be strong and firm
By telling no
You need that money for you
So you can live your life
Yes also they call you stingy
When you shop for clothes
Yes you have a budget
And you also can't go over the budget
Also you can only afford
To buy with your money
Used clothes
From a second hand store
Yes that is your style of clothes
That you love to wear
Every single day
Yes you don't know
Where all the years have gone
That you have grown old
Also you can't stop growing old
Because you father made life that way
Also we must still be happy
When the Summer arrives
After a long winter
Also our father brings the birds
Back home
That we have missed a long time
Also we have to be grateful for
All the things we have
We just don't need anymore
Also we can't take our money with us
When we die

I don't think you are
Strong enough to tell you friends
To stop hurting you
By calling you all the bad language
That exist in the universe
Also don't let people take advantage
By asking you for money
Please you have to be strong and firm
By telling no
You need that money for you
So you can live your life
Yes also they call you stingy
When you shop for clothes
Yes you have a budget
And you also can't go over the budget
Also you can only afford
To buy with your money
Used clothes
From a second hand store
Yes that is your style of clothes
That you love to wear
Every single day
Yes you don't know
Where all the years have gone
That you have grown old
Also you can't stop growing old
Because you father made life that way
Also we must still be happy
When the Summer arrives
After a long winter
Also our father brings the birds
Back home
That we have missed a long time
Also we have to be grateful for
All the things we have
We just don't need anymore
Also we can't take our money with us
When we die

I don’t think you know  how I feel
About the winter
I must tell you how much
I just hate the winter
Because the winter is very long
And also the temperature change
Every single day
Also we can get sick
With a flu

I don’t think you know  how I feel
About the winter
I must tell you how much
I just hate the winter
Because the winter is very long
And also the temperature change
Every single day
Also we can get sick
With a flu

I don’t wanna be left behind
Today my father
If you go any where father
Please take me with you
To another country
That doesn’t have any
Violence
Because father I hate to see
Violence
It doesn’t make me happy
Father to think of violence
Also in my country
The violence is happening
All the time
I wish that somebody
Would put an end to
Violence
The people that cause the violence
Should rootten in jail
Forever father
I feel sorry for the family of
The person that was killed
By the criminal
Also the jail is not a nice place
To be
You have to get up early
And be in court first thing
In the morning
Some people get out
On bail
Also the bail is not cheap

I don’t wanna be left behind
Today my father
If you go any where father
Please take me with you
To another country
That doesn’t have any
Violence
Because father I hate to see
Violence
It doesn’t make me happy
Father to think of violence
Also in my country
The violence is happening
All the time
I wish that somebody
Would put an end to
Violence
The people that cause the violence
Should rootten in jail
Forever father
I feel sorry for the family of
The person that was killed
By the criminal
Also the jail is not a nice place
To be
You have to get up early
And be in court first thing
In the morning
Some people get out
On bail
Also the bail is not cheap

I don’t wanna be left behind
Today my father
If you go any where father
Please take me with you
To another country
That doesn’t have any
Violence
Because father I hate to see
Violence
It doesn’t make me happy
Father to think of violence
Also in my country
The violence is happening
All the time
I wish that somebody
Would put an end to
Violence
The people that cause the violence
Should rootten in jail
Forever father
I feel sorry for the family of
The person that was killed
By the criminal
Also the jail is not a nice place
To be
You have to get up early
And be in court first thing
In the morning
Some people get out
On bail
Also the bail is not cheap

I don’t wanna be left behind
Today my father
If you go any where father
Please take me with you
To another country
That doesn’t have any
Violence
Because father I hate to see
Violence
It doesn’t make me happy
Father to think of violence
Also in my country
The violence is happening
All the time
I wish that somebody
Would put an end to
Violence
The people that cause the violence
Should rootten in jail
Forever father
I feel sorry for the family of
The person that was killed
By the criminal
Also the jail is not a nice place
To be
You have to get up early
And be in court first thing
In the morning
Some people get out
On bail
Also the bail is not cheap

I don’t wanna be left behind
Today my father
If you go any where father
Please take me with you
To another country
That doesn’t have any
Violence
Because father I hate to see
Violence
It doesn’t make me happy
Father to think of violence
Also in my country
The violence is happening
All the time
I wish that somebody
Would put an end to
Violence
The people that cause the violence
Should rootten in jail
Forever father
I feel sorry for the family of
The person that was killed
By the criminal
Also the jail is not a nice place
To be
You have to get up early
And be in court first thing
In the morning
Some people get out
On bail
Also the bail is not cheap

I don’t want to be left behind
Today my father
If you go any where father
Please take me with you
To another country
That doesn’t have any
Violence
Because father I hate to see
Violence
It doesn’t make me happy
Father to think of violence
Also in my country
The violence is happening
All the time
I wish that somebody
Would put an end to
Violence
The people that cause the violence
Should rotten in jail
Forever father
I feel sorry for the family of
The person that was killed
By the criminal
Also the jail is not a nice place
To be
You have to get up early
And be in court first thing
In the morning
Some people get out
On bail
Also the bail is not cheap

I don’t want to fight anymore
I find hard to stay awake during the day
And I don’t want to fight anymore this battle
I have trouble also getting up in the morning
And there is another battle that I have to fight
I never have enough sleep lately
I don’t want to fight in the war any more
Because I saw so many people dying
Some got their had their had and arms blown of
I want to come home so badly
I miss my home that Is Canada
There is so much freedom in Canada
There oversees they are training young kids to be soldier
I had to bury the dead bodies in the grave yard
I don’t want to fight my depression any more
I don’t want to fight my diabetes
Even though is under control
I have to fight my eating
Because I struggle with eating
I am learning to eat small portions now
I have a weight problem
And I am working on loosing weight

I don't want to go to sleep
Because I decided to sit in my balcony
And watch the moon and the stars shining in the sky at night
The moon and the stars in the sky took my breath away
Also it was a beautiful night
Tomorrow it is going to be another day
And by then the night will be over
And the day will start

I don't want to go to sleep
Because I decided to sit in my balcony
And watch the moon and the stars shining in the sky at night
The moon and the stars in the sky took my breath away
Also it was a beautiful night
Tomorrow it is going to be another day
And by then the night will be over
And the day will start

Friends
I  don’t want to loose you
Because I need you also
Badly in my life
Friends I am so happy
That you support me
In my life
Friends I want you
To respect me also
Please respect my race
And my religion
Friends
We are going to pray
To our father
This morning
And ask in our prayer
For our father to give as peace and health
Because we are not living in peace
Because we are every day feeling stressed out
Friends
I am very happy that you respect my opinion

I don’t want to loose you
Because you are older than me
I am also afraid to loose you
Any day now
You are living all the life that
You are going to live
Here on earth
Because you lived the fullest
Life
And you can’t wait any longer
To go to heaven now
I hope you life in heaven
Will be much happier
Than on earth
On earth you will be
Able to see again you
Loved ones
That died before you
And I wish that
You will be able
To rest in peace
At night in you
Brass bed
Also friends
That had left behind here
On earth will be praying for you
Every single night
Yes also they will be missing you

I don't want to say goodbye
To the beautiful days of Summer
That you bring every day here
For me to enjoy first thing in the
Morning
Now soon the
Midday will arrive soon
And the sun will be very hot by then
I will have to find a shade spot
I feel that if I stay in the sun too
Long I might get a heat stroke
I don't want to get a heat stroke
It will be very bad if I get a heat stroke
That can also **** me
I am not planning to die of a heat
Stroke
I feel glad to be living on earth
Now that still Summer
The days are longer here on earth
And it gets dark at 9:00 Pm
Every single night
The sun goes down at 9:00 pm
And I also see the beautiful sunset
And then the night
Arrive very fast
Now it is the time for me
To go to sleep
Before I go to sleep
There is something very important that
I must do
Is pray to God
Before I go to sleep
Is pray to my God
Please God keep me
Alive here on earth every single day
Because I want to be alive every
Single day here on earth
Every day I wake up
At 9:00am
Because I want wake up
Feeling rested
And knock on wood
It is happening to me
Yes I am getting plenty
Of sleep every night
Also it was morning now
I need to get ready to
Start the morning
First I will shave my face the old
Fashion way
I need to shave very slowly
Or I will cut myself
It is not easy to shave with a throwaway razor
And shaving cream
I must say that I just hate
To shave
But I do it to have a clean appearance
Then when my shave is finished
I go to have my shower
I get my bath sponge and I pure my body
Wash
I rub my bath sponge
All over my body
With the sponge and the sponge
Removes
The dirt of my skin

I dream a dream
With  my Father
That had made me
In his image
He gave me
Grey hair and brown eyes
Every body tells me that I am a
Young handsome men
Who has grey hair
Yes I am wear that people
Are entitle to their opinion
About my  self
I don't agree with them
I feel that is ok
Also I am  not a young men anymore
I have aged already
Every single year
And I Can't  stop that
Because my Father
Made life that way
I dream a dream
With my loved ones
Every single night
When I am sleeping
Yes I have been missing my  loved ones
For a long time now
I wished that they were alive
To see how fast I have matured
Today I have grown more religious
I don't go to bed without praying for my father
Every single night
Also I am one of my Father's child
Also he gave me a beautiful life
Here on earth
And that life I live every single day
Here on earth
Please Father don't let me die young
Because I want to live until I am 80 years old

I feel alright
Praying for my father
Tonight
Before I go to bed
I know that it only
Takes a few minutes
To pray for my father
Then I will be able
To go to bed straight
And when I am in bed
The first thing I do
Is close my mind
And then I shut my eyes
And also I drift away
Into a sleep
And I also
Feel alright dreaming away
With my loved ones
That have died before me
I know that they are not suffering
Anymore
And they are resting in peace
Also in heaven
The day I die I know
That I will meet
My loved ones again

God today it is the first day that I feel good
Because I had a good night sleep finally
And I am not tired either
I think my medication that I take every night kicked in
Which is wonderful to know
I already took my morning showered
And I am feeling refreshed
I also know that the new day already started
And that makes me feel good
I am not a morning person
But I believe that you also took my morning blues away
So that is why I am feeling good for the first time

God today it is the first day that I feel good
Because I had a good night sleep finally
And I am not tired either
I think my medication that I take every night kicked in
Which is wonderful to know
I already took my morning showered
And I am feeling refreshed
I also know that the new day already started
And that makes me feel good
I am not a morning person
But I believe that you also took my morning blues away
So that is why I am feeling good for the first time

I feel it coming
It is my anger
That it is totally
Out of control
To tell you the truth
My father
I don’t know how to control it
My father
I wish that you could
Teach me how to control my anger
Because I have no Idea

I feel it coming
It is my anger
That it is totally
Out of control
To tell you the truth
My father
I don’t know how to control it
My father
I wish that you could
Teach me how to control my anger
Because I have no Idea

I feel myself going angry
Out of control again
I have to learn to relax
And be less angry
I have to learn to deal with my anger
It is out of control now
Now I am in trouble more than ever
Sometimes I don't know why I loose my head
And my anger comes
It comes in so fast
Out of the blue
I need some time to loosen up and relax
My legs are kind of shaky right now
Loosen up and relax watching the television I will
I find it to be my best companion these days
The television can't talk back to me
A good thing it is not human like I am
So it doesn't have feelings
But I do
Sometimes my feelings get mixed up
Inside my head
So once again I have to learn to loosen up and relax
I feel so tight inside
Like I am going to explode any minute
That is what I am beginning to see and feel right now

I feel so bad for him
He is not religious at all
Also he doesn't believe in God
The sad part
Is he keeps to  himself
He doesn't have any friends
He tells everybody
That he is fine
Living without friends
Also he is happy
Being a solo person
Living in his own
Little world

Father
I feel so good to be loved by you
Also father
I must tell you that
I need to be loved by somebody
And that somebody is you
Father
Also you have made me
With your holy hands
Many years ago
And you took good
Care of me
Because I was a baby
And I needed lots of care
Changing my diapers
Every two hours
I was a lot of work for you
But the only way I could communicate
With you was by crying
A few months later
I had my baptism
A few months later I had grown a bit
And I was a chubby baby
And one year later I stop
Wearing finally diapers
I became a beautiful boy
And I started my childhood
My father had played with me
For a few hours every day
Then I had a nap in the afternoon
For a couple hours

I feel so unsure
My dear father
I feel so unsure about my
Future
My father
You are the only one
That know’s about
My future
What will my future be like?
Can you please explaine it to me
Because I can’t wait to figure out
The things about the future
My father I  believe that I can’t
Make any mistakes in my future
That I had done in my past life
That I have lot’s of regrets about
My past
Also my past
Was horrible because  I had
Done bad things
I also had to walk the road to hell
Alone that was very bad for me
Because I had also suffered
In my past life