I see walls not hammers
I see stone not water
I see perceptions not ideas
I see darkness not light
I see mirrors not candles
I see ending not beginning
Can you see your illusions fade away ?

There are days so dark I can’t see light anywhere
There are  days that no grass grows from the ground
There are days that seem hopeless
Days that I watch the black sky rise above me
I don’t want to do anything
I just want it to swallow me
To end me
As l lie down in this barren ground
I just want to stop existing
Because I see no meaning in it in humans
There is no meaning in anything that could fill this dark void
this dark sky
This dark misery
And so I hear them come
Those dark horses
They circle round me
Their mane made of dark clouds
Their body out of fear
I can’t stand this
I hope a lightning trikes me
I silently beg for the strike that will end my misery
But it doesn’t happen
And so the horses crush my bones with their hoofs
Endless pain
Endless suffering
That’s life
Endless hurt
For a moment of happiness
So that is  the worth of the human world

The road is far
Till the end
But I must keep going
Through the sand of the abyss
that pulls me down
to the darkness
I can’t see clearly
But I must go on
It’s not the will of the body
But the hope of the soul
The hope that isn’t yet gone
For how long
Wonders a small voice
In this dark world
For how long till the spark of hope is gone

Pressure from outside or inside ?
Ready to explode
This misery
This fire is ready to come out
Can this body endure ?
Can this mind hope ?
Can this world change ?
This meadow I walk in
Everything around burns
The truth though doesn’t
The world , its people
Its destroyers
Its savages
Are burning
But yet none of them explodes.