My mind feels like a battlefield,
Hundreds of thoughts are fighting for the lead.
And their fight is so loud,
It's like I'm standing in a huge crowd.
I can never think about one thing at a time,
Like it would be some kind of a crime.
Sometimes I wonder how to make peace,
But then even more chaos they release.
So the best thing is just to keep quiet,
And don't start any kind of riot.
Cause if you make them mad,
You'll lose all the happiness you've had.

I'm tired of listening the voices in my head screaming,
like they're dieing.

They mess with my brain,
And I can't focus on anything again.
I feel so lost in the sadness,
Because I can't see any light in this darkness.

I can't think, I can't speak,
I feel so week.
There is no escape in this dark and frightful landscape.
Everywhere I go,
It follows me from every place I know.

And the voices will never stop,
Until I finally pop.
They will continue to torture me,
Knowing I won't ever get free.
Get free of all the grief,
Feel some kind of relief.

Sometimes it's OKAY
NOT to be OKAY.

When your heart is so full of sadness,
And your mind filled with darkness.
When you constantly feel empty inside,
When your eyes are tired from how many times they've cried.

It's okay if you lose your hope for awhile,
As long as you get it back with a smile.
You can't stop believing,
No matter how much you're grieving.

Eventually God will see your pain,
And much strength and happiness you will gain.

Cause the rainbow won't light up
the sky unless you let it rain,
And candles just won't glow untill they're burned.

Pain, a thing that consumes us all,
Untill we finally start to fall.
You can't escape it,
Not even a little bit.
It's a big part of you,
And that you can not undo.
Sometimes it's your enemy,
That tortures you mentally.
But sometimes it's a motivation,
For a remarkable creation.
Sometimes it hurts,
Like some kind of a curse.
But sometimes it gives you strength,
Not to lose your breath.
Sometimes it can be so brutal,
And so crutial,
That you can't even get up,
Or keep you head up.
But all those wounds with time will heal,
And joy and happiness again you will feel.

There was this girl,
Lonely and afraid.
Terrified of all the things that lie ahead.

Every single time she closes her eyes,
All that she can see are her worst fears and all things demonize.
She is drowning in her sea of fears, losing her breath until it finally disappears.

And when she wakes up, all in fright,
She starts her day with no tears in sight.
She hides her truth behind a smile,
Hides it but just for awhile.
Until she starts drowning again,
Up to the time a new day has began.

And no one knows her pain and suffer,
Because she hides it as a true disguiser.
No one could ever expect, that she is dieing every night she has slept.
She will continue to battle her own death,
Until one day she'll run out of breath.

Every night I go to bed,
I think about all the things that
Make me sad.

I think about my fright of future
Every time, like it's in my nature.
I fill my eyes full with tears
Because my brain is so full of fears.

Then the anxiety kicks in,
And I get more scared than I've ever been.
But there's this voice in my head,
That keeps telling me It's not that bad.
You'll be fine, you'll be okay
as long as you keep your shadow away.

So I weak up, wipe my tears,
and the shadow disappears.
I spend my day like all is good,
Acting like I'm in a bright mood.

But then at night the shadow
comes again,
And it starts messing with my brain.
Makes me feel like I want to die,
Because I can't do anything except cry.

Every single thing you do,
Should be because of you.
Not because of anyone else,
It's just bad for your health.

No matter how much you try to please them,
You'll just get another condemn.
They will never like the look of your body,
They'll make you feel like a nobody.

But you can't let it get to you,
Cause you'll lose all of your value.
Their opinion doesn't matter,
Your real strength and beauty will just make them jitter.

They're not worth your tears and pain,
Stop letting them mess with your brain.
Because on the end of the day,
You need to learn how to leave with yourself,
And not with anyone else.