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1.0k · Dec 2020
Under Anesthesia
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Where does the soul go when I'm under anesthesia?
Where does the soul go?

Where does the soul go when I'm put under? Where does the soul go?
Where does the soul go when I'm under anesthesia?

Where is this place where I become insensitive to pain,
Where dreams do not exist
Where time becomes a secret
And sleep escapes me
When I am absent,  when I am gone
When I am here and nowhere.

Where does the soul go when I'm under anesthesia?

Do I  just become quantum information embedded in the universe?

Where does the soul go when I'm under anesthesia? Where does it go?
71 · Jan 2021
How
CarolKirby Jan 2021
How
How high of you
To think so low of me
How low of me
To think so high of you
71 · Jan 2021
Blessing in Disguise
CarolKirby Jan 2021
There's an invisible string that connects my heart to yours, and I can feel what ever hurts you.

Any struggle, sorrow, pain,  you feel I feel it through and through. At first I thought it was a curse, I could not understand.

Now God has shown me your true worth, You are my prayer catalyst. So blessed I am.

Our destinies tied like Loving bows  so deeply intertwined. It's been revealed who you really are, Your my blessing in disguise.
64 · Dec 2020
Love Pandemic Style
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Someone asked me, How do we love each other in a pandemic when we have to be  at least six feet apart ?

I answered, I may not be able to lick my own elbow or sneeze with my eyes open or even tickle my own self.  And believe it or not I could never manage to put my fist in my own mouth. But, compared to those things loving each other in a pandemic is as easy as face timing.
48 · Dec 2020
Divided Nation Wake Up
CarolKirby Dec 2020
The remnant moans of our ancestors
still lingers in the hearts that can hear them, as we walk a path they made easy.

We tread over unfulfilled dreams, wishes, hopes, cruel, violent endings and still to this very day many of us are held captive by the shackles of mental and physical slavery.

Will we let the lives and deaths of generations gone by fall upon deaf ears and dead hearts? Will we let the precious blood that was shed senselessly upon the earth Be remembered in stories of old as some old fable or wives tale?

We must wake up from our slumber
Ignite the torch of equality
Hold up the banner of Truth
Unite as one human family under one God.

Divided nation, hear my plea
we must wake up together
Break the trance of differences
Focus on the similarities
Sever the Rope of mines and yours
Break the bonds of oppression

And maybe, just maybe our children
Will see the peace, bring the peace, be the peace and live in peace.

Maybe just maybe our children will walk an easier path.
46 · Dec 2020
I'm Not a Vegan
CarolKirby Dec 2020
I'm not a vegan, but I apologize.
I apologize to every roasted animal that my tongue has tasted, my teeth has chewed and my stomach has digested.

I'm not a vegan, but I apologize
To every mother hen for eating her babies, for every crab I boiled alive, and for every fish I've fried.

I'm not a vegan, and I was not raised to be one. But for some reason my heart tells me it's not right to **** and steal the lives of helpless creatures especially in a world where food options are many.

I'm not vegan, but I apologize.
44 · Dec 2020
Ignore the Inner Screams
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Ignore the inner screams
Refuse to nervously rush around
Slow down and take a minute to listen to that still small voice of truth, that calming quiet voice of assurance.
43 · Dec 2020
Touch
CarolKirby Dec 2020
When you touch my body it's a temporary pleasure but when you touch my heart it's remembered forever.
42 · Dec 2020
I Love My Pet
CarolKirby Dec 2020
I Love My pet, in fact I love animals.
I love all kinds of animals. I love them so much. Amazing communicators they are, animals are truly special and a gift from the Creator to man. All animals and especially our pets have the ability to speak with their eyes and they are the most loyal companions. I Love My pet and I love all animals.
38 · Dec 2020
Caught You
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Caught you
Caught you in the moment but not in the movement
Caught you in the thought but not in the deed
Caught you in the omission but not in the lie
But, I caught you!
38 · Dec 2020
Purification
CarolKirby Dec 2020
From time to time the heart is in need of purification. I shall first remind myself of this, "A heart that houses no lies can never uncover the truth."
37 · Dec 2020
We Are More
CarolKirby Dec 2020
We are more
We are so much more
We are so much more than
We are so much more than our
We are so much more an our physical
We are so much more than our physical bodies. We are so much more than our physical looks. But it's still amazes me how to most of us our physical looks mean so much more.
37 · Dec 2020
Don't Say
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Don't say I never gave you nothing
Don't say it. Please Don't say...
I gave you my three greatest gifts
All day, each day

I gave you my love
I gave you my time
I gave you my attention
Like a partner in crime
Don't say I never gave you nothing
Don't say it. Please don't say...
35 · Dec 2020
A World Without Them
CarolKirby Dec 2020
When my father died, I thought I could not live in a world without him. But, I did

Then 30 years later my mother died. And I was sure, I could not live in a world without her. But, I did !

A few years later my brother and my sister died.
And, I am still here
I live in a world without them
35 · Dec 2020
Killer Words
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Killer words, those killer words, they can **** more than your spirit. Every single mean word you say to me, those very mean things you say when you're angry, are like bullets shooting up my heart.
34 · Dec 2020
I Am You Are
CarolKirby Dec 2020
I am as you thought I was
You are as you think I am
I am all that you thought you were
You are all that I think I am
I am the "You" in every "I am"
You are all that you thought you were
33 · Dec 2020
You Can
CarolKirby Dec 2020
You can find what you've never lost
You can have what you've never had
You can see what you've never seen
You can, really you can

You can taste what you've never tasted
You can feel what you've never felt
You can say what you've never said  
You can, really you can

So, don't be afraid to find, have, see, taste and  feel it . Just say it, surrender to love. You can, really you can!
33 · Dec 2020
Loving You
CarolKirby Dec 2020
There's something I've been longing to tell you. Loving you, is hurting me. Loving you is hurting me, it's hurting me !
33 · Dec 2020
Emotional Abuse
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Emotional abuse is cutting off communication and affection from those who once cared for you, tying up the hands that once held you and taping up the mouth that once inspired you with words of Love.
32 · Dec 2020
Looney Tune Life
CarolKirby Dec 2020
You will not see bugs Bunny
Or Daffy duck and such
You won't find Peter rabbit
Or Tom and Jerry fuss

You won't find SpongeBob jump
Around in yellow pants
Or power girls with frilly curls
Or Cinderella dance

You will see hungry people
You will see people cry
You will see mother's shake their heads
As their sons go off to die
You will see people shooting
Each other just like pray

You will see people losing jobs
And some will lose their way
But you'll always see good people
In every scene of life
In every single chapter
In this ****** Tune called life!
32 · Dec 2020
Love follows
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Like a shadow love follows me and like the sun I bask in it. The more light my shadow absorbs the larger it becomes. Until the light and my shadow have become as one. Love follows me like a shadow. Love follows.
32 · Dec 2020
No Loss
CarolKirby Dec 2020
There's no loss in love
The one who loves can
Never lose.
30 · Dec 2020
Love Is
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Love is when I think about you so much that I forget to think about myself.
29 · Dec 2020
My Heart
CarolKirby Dec 2020
My mind may forgive and forget how you've hurt me but my heart will always remind me never to forget. My heart reminds me. My heart has a mind of its own.
27 · Dec 2020
I Will Leave You
CarolKirby Dec 2020
I will leave you with something
Something no man has ever touched
Something no ****** can compete with

I will leave you with something so beautiful each time I leave you. Only to return to you again and again and again

I will leave you with something
Something that lives as life itself
Something that only I can leave you

A life giving breeze, the sweetest of treasures. My most intimate gift.
I leave you my breath, with each kiss, I leave you with dewdrops from my sacred breath.
27 · Dec 2020
Friend
CarolKirby Dec 2020
If you really consider me to be a friend, then say the bad things about me to my face and say the good things about me  behind my back.
27 · Dec 2020
Altered States
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Altered States that exist in my own head. There are many states of existence in my head. Which are referred to as the mind.

There are many minds in one head. Which are considered personalities.

There are many personalities in my head. Which are considered behaviors. And even those are not mine.
27 · Dec 2020
The Realized life
CarolKirby Dec 2020
The first half of my life
Trying to be something
Feeling like I'm nothing
I would have never tried so hard to be something, if I had known I was nothing!

Second half of my life
Trying to be nothing ?
When all the time I was something
***! I would have never tried so hard to be nothing, if only I had known I was something!
26 · Dec 2020
I Am a Mother
CarolKirby Dec 2020
I am a mother
Children come through me and yet they're not mine. My womb is a place of growth that  nourishes their bodies and yet I cannot grow their souls.
26 · Dec 2020
Read Me
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Read me, you can read me
Just like a book, you can read me
How can I hide what I feel inside from you, My love, when you can read me.

Read me, look deep into the windows of my eyes, and you will see scrambled letters written on the pages of my soul.
Fill in the blanks with your love and read me.

Read me, read the ****** scars left upon my heart. Scars by those who have hurt me and by those who I have hurt. Read me. Free me.

Ah! What pleasure it is to be read by you. One penetrating look into the depths of my soul and all the scrambled letters become words that suddenly makes sense.
26 · Dec 2020
Words
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Words have the power
Words are very, very powerful
Words have the power to **** you
And they have the power to heal you
Words always prove why actions mean everything !
24 · Dec 2020
Pain and Suffering
CarolKirby Dec 2020
In ny opinion I feel pain and suffering is pointless, and is not necessary for development and growth. I feel that it's not conducive to ones well being. Pain and suffering is only necessary for those who can't learn from love.
24 · Dec 2020
What's Real
CarolKirby Dec 2020
What's real?
What is really real?
Love's Real !
Love is as real as it gets !
23 · Dec 2020
Consciousness
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Consciousness, the great survivor, witness of witnesses, watches within and without engulfed by great precision as the brain generates consciousness.

Consciousness is the greatest survivor, the most mysterious of creations, the subtle visitor. It has the power to come and go; to escape every danger.

Consciousness, the great survivor, has the power to travel into the expansion of the universe, gather information and return it to the tiny confinements of the body.

Consciousness, the great survivor leaves the brain as a curious observer and when the brain ceases to function, consciousness departs and travels gathering information, as it waits for permission to take what was gathered and makes it accessible to the brain.
22 · Dec 2020
Life
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Life, can be an exciting journey
Where every  step is like skydiving
Learning the most lessons
Solving difficult problems

Life, the place where I play and learn with the same intent. Where I'm conscience of the entire manifold and everything around me at once

Life, everything around me is captivating, engaging, and different
And my brain lights up from something new

Life, like Einstein everyday I discover a new theory. And I myself become the example of the meaning of having a soul
22 · Dec 2020
My Friend
CarolKirby Dec 2020
I love you my friend!
You walked in when they all walked out and that's what true friends are about.
22 · Dec 2020
Implosion
CarolKirby Dec 2020
When he said
Something's missing
I feel differently about us
You're not the same anymore
I'm tired of trying to make it work
I'm not feelin' you, feelin' you like that
My heart blew up bang, bang, bang, it's
death by implosion.
21 · Dec 2020
Lies
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Lies are like eyes
For they deceive
without blinking

Eyes are like lies
For they deceive
Themselves
20 · Dec 2020
Love is Like a Light
CarolKirby Dec 2020
Love is a like a light that illuminates in all directions. And for that reason and that reason alone, you will always be loved.

Love is like a light that illuminates in all directions. And for that reason and that reason alone, you will always feel love.

Love is like a light that illuminates in all directions. And for that reason and that reason alone, you will always be near.

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