I sway back and forth to be release from the ashes building up inside of me

It's me.

The one holding back all the sparks inside me.

The one who become both
Ashes and sparks.

Like a phoenix bursting into flame after so long she had been brought to life
And now she is free from fleeing more than ever

Unstoppable electricity power all my body as an intoxicating veneno coming back and forth  until struggle came to be painful. Some people choose elixir but choosing is not in me but my heart. Above and below was the same. As you go and come it was all the same. I Tried. Couldnt. And who- dares to betray a heart that already knows the truth.
-Luz delas est.

How does she confront her worst fear? By attacking them, fighting for what is hers, holding on to it until its bleeds hard. She hold it so hard that the bleeding comes a part of who she become not what she fell to be. Once a wise said "Get up my dear girl, and move forward if you do fell in a misfortune you likely be in great trouble to be in an well and never see the beauty of your own greatness so its time to accept reality and never and ever be addicted to your sorrow. You can bleed for awhile however don't maintain yourself there forever.