She touched me with a Lover's stroke
I gasped for air, my heart raced
Electricity down my spine
She looked deep into my eyes
As she dropped her last clothes
Waves of longing hit me
It was swim or sink

Everything ached and pained
She labored on mundane tasks
The sickness took her to dark space
Friends and family gave support
But she had to do this by herself

Why me she wondered
It all seemed to be one bad dream
Life begins at 40 they said
Her world was crumbling around her
More questions fewer answers

She craved answers
She wanted to be whole
Nothing seemed to work right
She crawled into her bed and prayed
She needed to be there for her girl
Her daughter meant the world to her
She will beat this

Do it for the Foes and Hoes
They're watching
Hopin' you slip
Give'em a slip
Leave them running their lip
Oh keep them on their toes
Foes and Hoes

The boy watched them lower his mum' s wooden box
He was just 11 at the time
Family crowded around him
He did not take any notice of them
He was numb

Everything else around his lost meaning
The world was without colour
He tried to make sense of it all
No success

Back home ,  he went to his room
Curtains drawn, massive headphones
He listened to stories online
Stories on Aurelius, Seneca, Epictetus
Right then he became a convert
A Stoic.

Now he understands,
Mum did not die, she Returned !
Do he promised himself never to be attached again !
That's when he received Salvation
He was free

Undisturbed emotionally
Dispassionate
Equanimity
Sober, clear minded
Acknowledge emotion
Stay clear of passions
Be Stoic.

Perfect , just a perfect evening
Lovely company, quiet music
Sumptuous meal
Captivating conversation
Everything else seems a world away
He was a man of her dreams
Right everything!

Then it was time to leave
She just needed to go to bathroom
A quick dash before they head off
Only to come back and find him gone
With a note left behind saying sorry
It was all a mistake
He was married and needed to go
She sat down for a minute
It was all a blur !
A nightmare.

She doesn't want to go home
She's happy to face the dawn
Walk of Shame and the whole shindig
She wants to stay with me tonight
She's a big girl now.
She wanna chill with the big boy.