In silence I suffer
It seems to go on endlessly
It leaves me emotionally drained
Physically am a wreck
But I trod on
I will still keep at it
Even though the end is still not in sight

Every now and then when I hear her voice
Her excitement washes all the pain
Her smile numbs all the aches
She's full of life ,
A chat with her refuels me
She brings meaning to the suffering

She's my little girl
But she's more than that
She's my rock
Bring color to mind world
Makes the hard work worth it
The joy of providing for her
Makes me forget all the aches

What a teacher
How I wish I could reach ya
I need a guide right now
Am lost in the sea of emotions
How I could do with your presence

Dad, sickness and death conspired
With no pity, dragged you away
We fought, we tried
God knows we did
You did put a good fight as well
In the end you lost
Lost a good fight

Now I sit here with a blank stare
I long for your stories
Wherein, a lesson lay
I got to trod on
With unsure steps
Chart my way through life
Knowing you're no longer here
But your words will light my way

Like the Little Simba in the Lion King movie
I stare blankly, confused and pained
As voices of doubt engulf me like wild fire
Then I hear a calming voice
A reassuring voice saying
"Stay calm child,this is a cycle of life
I've run a good race , I've kept faith
Now ... Go on and give life a good go
Enjoy moments and make lasting memories."

Dad ... Thank you.
I mumble.

Don't look for too long
Lest your heart will long
You know that would be wrong
It will leave your heart with a sad song
Sleepless nights will be your company
Just because you saw what she denied many
She left you craving for her honey
At times I think she's a phoney
Maybe to be with her you need the money
Boy better walk away
Otherwise your heart will lead you astray
You know with you she'll not stay
In the end you'll have no say

She walks elegantly
Oh she moves like ballerina
Like wild horse
She's free, untamed
Anyone who sees her is captured
She lingers on in the mind
Well after she has disappeared from sight
Many want her company
Want to keep her for themselves
It never happens
They all be left thirsty
Their bodies aching for her
Truthfully they can't handle her
Undenying beauty
Sharp wit and good sense of humour
But she wants a Stallion
Someone brave like a lion
If you want be a companion
Otherwise keep walking on

Tell me a story
Grip me like a vice
In imagination
Let me see the world through your eyes
Through your words
Let your emotions reveal
I want to journey with you
Tell me
Am listening
I intend to judge not
Let me move my chair closer
Switch off the television
You have me
Tell me
Don't suffer alone
Share that joke
Whatever it is
I want to be in your world
Tell me YOUR STORY

She was in troubled waters
She could not keep her head up
She fought
She was in despair
She asked if I could be her bridge
She cried, she begged
Yes, I said
I will be her bridge over the troubled waters
I will save her
Save her from the abusive relationship
Save her from emotional turmoil
But I always knew she'll walk off
Once she feels safe
No one stays on the bridge
I still did it.
I chose to be her bridge
I let her use me.

A horse bolts from the gates
From the saddle the jockey guides it
Together they work in a tandem
The crowd rises to its feet
The pace gathers
Surely they have this in the bag
Everthing seems to go plan
The gamblers cross their fingers
Others nervously chew on their nails
Now only the front three can win
Suddenly, it all comes to halt
A crushing ,harrowing stop
The horse had looked to the side
Rattled by the screaming crowds
Saw the other Jockey waving his stick
The other horses seemed too close
He lost focus ,he pulled up
Throwing the jockey off the saddle
He did not have any blinders on
He failed to keep his eyes straight
Because of this, many hopes were crashed
A certain win has become a tragedy
Such is life, we all need blinders
There are many distractions,
Especially from people who feel threatened
To get to prize , the mind must clear and focused
Like a horse our mind needs BLINDERS .