Beware the mind that has nothing to do
The way becomes like a traveller lost in a
Fog
The lines blur
Intentions lurk beneath the murk of
Uncertainty
Desires of the heart run rampant
The mist swallows
Hidden agendas
The twisted path of a game played
When the mind is not held in the strict regime
It slacks off and wanders
To places no one remembers
And discovers things lost
And becomes tangled in a maze
No sure way of getting out
No clear path
Until daybreak
And light pierces the soul
Beams eat up the mist
And the traveller returns to the road
-HC

Do you remember being young and alive
Dancing in time with the beating of your
Heart
Pounding
Roaring
Drowning in emotion
Each moment fiercely its own
Each breath worth living
Do you remember what it feels like to be young and in
Love
Nothing else exists
The world stops
Just two hearts and souls colliding
In the only way they know how
Do you remember stumbling through life
Laughing with no care into the wind
Knowing significantly more about life
And yet so much less
The simplicity of it not yet deprived
Of broken dreams
Shattered glass
The knowledge clouding the basic truths
The complexities hiding the simple joys and moments
Oh life became so unshakingly clear
When did we start chasing the things
That do not matter
Our lives
Heads heavy in our hands
Worries spreading through our minds like a disease
Do we ever long for forever
Knowing it’ll never last
But not caring
Bring us back
To the unashamed dancing
Stay up late dwelling on mysteries
Till our lids won’t lift
But our hearts are full
The electricity
Awaken once again
The excitement
And painfully aware of our surroundings
Till we know things in throbbing detail
Know ourselves
And the light trickling through the window
Everything will be alright again someday
Trust me
And you’ll know how
To regain
The eyes of youth
Alive breaking through a cocoon
To the most beautiful
Metamorphosis
-HC

When I say I don’t want to be alone
It might have to do with wanting to share experiences with someone else
Baring my soul to another
It’s not just me being flaky
It’s more than the fear of the dark
The fear of what’s in it
It’s more than wanting a hand to hold
Because shouldn’t that be okay
A hand to hold makes you stronger
Someone to experience the dark with you
Makes things seem less dark
Don’t you know it’s okay
To let go of the idealized view of yourself
You don’t have to stand alone and do it all yourself
Independent yes
But don’t let yourself become so independent
That you forget what daylight looks like
That you think the light is the dark
And the sharpened sword pointed at your throat
Should mean that others should **** it up to
Just because you had to **** it up
Doesn’t mean others need to flounder
Let your soul be bare with no protection
Realize there is light
In the darkest forest
Light still tries to cut through
Cut you to the core
See what your made of
Are you bitter from past regrets
Why are you still letting them affect you
If they are in the past
Then why are you still holding on
If you’ve been trying the same thing over and over
Why haven’t you started afresh
And started something new
You are clinging to a rock on the shore
The waves keep battering you against the rock
Why won’t you open your eyes
And look to the left
And see safety
If you wear rejection as a shawl
Each look down the street
A reflection of how much hate you pour onto yourself
Don’t you realize you are scalding yourself with tea
You keep pouring it
Because the pain is too much to stop
Do you keep making yourself seem smaller
And acting smaller
And hoping no one will see you and yet hoping someone will see you
And yet you have this mask on that no one can see through because what is more painful than admitting it
How is anyone going to know you are suffering if you don’t let anyone know
People are often more concerned with themselves
They don’t often look your way
When they do they often don’t see the pain you have on the inside
If your face tells otherwise
Often if they knew you were begging for someone to care
They’d be willing to help
But be careful with your heart all the same,
Don’t give it to those who don’t deserve it
Even if you are tired of waiting
If everyday drags on
And you feel like know one will love you
And you feel like you deserve to be loved
And trust me you are worthy
But not just anyone is going to cut it
You may feel all over the place and feel like you are falling for anyone who comes your way
It’s hard
But not everyone can handle
All that you are
Not everyone can appreciate what makes you you
And just as you shouldn’t try to hide or saw off your hard edges to fit someone’s view of you
Don’t step all over someone
Like someone else has stepped all over you
It’s hard being alone in the dark
Remember that the next time you have an option to hold someone’s hand
-HC