Who knew that making a phone call
could shatter my existence
who knew that taking these tiny little steps
could create paralyzing doom
Leading me to relive
the most terrifying nightmare of my life
I certainly didn't know
Not knowing if these tears would one day stop flowing
I imagine myself walking up to the door
fear freezing my muscles
a doorway where my fears linger in the shadows
taking me to the small little room
with people like me
people who are scared
people that are feared
do they scream from inside their minds
in the prison they created
I breathe in slowly and exhale
releasing as much pain as possible
I try to hit the breaks
as my ego takes me to the
darkest corners of my mind
But I wont go
I will be brave
my cups are no longer half empty
I will do this I whisper to myself
even if my hands are shaking
I hold my head up
let the sunshine fall upon my face
and repeat silently to my darkened ego.
My destiny is mine and
I am doing this.

-J.Klaas

We danced we were feeling the light
Naked kisses for me unzipped unattached
Show me hold me. Head to heals perfection
For real
close the door
For me take it
for me now
More its
more more more
Kisses smashed against the door
Test me I can’t sleep
You know me don’t give in
Innocent whispers dance in front of me
The teasing I believed it
My body thinks you know me
My everything in the look of your eyes
Dance across my mind all day
Lost control in front of you
I’m addicted
Anyone there? I’m scared.
Where do I belong?
Am I someone else?
Do we understand?
Its after midnight will you be there?
I’m alone in these sheets makes me feel like someone else
I am lost are you?
Times are crazy I am here
Is this you is this me?
People change people learn
Where is your heart
that’s the same I am me my heart is here
Where is the love I just want to understand

-J. Klaas

Who taught us to be too scared to share.
Why is this a battle so deeply in-bedded in us all.
I have all these thoughts
and words that I know need to be shared
a voice that needs to be heard.
This phoenix has burst into her inferno of flames
and she is rising like the sun from these smokey ashes.
We as a whole have choked each other out
smudged every piece of our own existence
burnt ourselves down
It is time to rise.
Rise with me now
leave these suffocating ashes behind.
Breathe in new air
feel the earths shifting shift within you.
It is time feel the pain our mother has endured.
Sing with her and heal with her.
Lay your hands upon her shoulders become one.
We are all connected
we are all in this together.

-J. Klaas