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Abi Apr 4
My body was a temple
But men used it like a rental
All because I craved affection from the wrong humans
Now it’s in ruins
It makes me want to rip off my skin
I hate the body I’m in
I feel gross
Abi Mar 29
She was beautiful
It was indisputable
Her curse was how she saw herself in her eyes
She saw everyone’s compliments as lies
Because the reflection in the mirror staring back
Was full of everything she lacked
Brains are deceiving
Abi Mar 16
I want to trust you,
I really do,
But I can’t break down my walls,
I don’t want to fall,
What if you’re like everyone else,
And all you want from me is ***,
What makes you different,
From others who have only ever seen me as an object,

I want someone who wants to get to know my soul,
That wants to understand me as a whole,
Not just use me to satisfy their needs,
Because all they care about is their own greed,

I want the love that poets write about,
An all consuming love that makes you lose yourself,
One that sets your soul on fire,
That fills you with unwavering desire,
Desire to know them on a deeper level,
Because you see them as something special,

I want someone who makes my world brighter,
And on the bad days they hug me tighter,
Because they know about my trauma,
That sometimes I can’t see pass the dark,
So they make sure to make me laugh,
Reminding me every time that they’re my other half,

But that isn’t reality,
We’re in the era of hypersexuality,
Where everyone just wants to bone,
Because they want just a second of not feeling alone,
No one wants love anymore,
Lust comes easy but love is now a chore
I hate this ****
Abi Mar 13
I want to get sober
I really do
But it helps me when I can’t breathe
And I can’t seem to ever be able to breathe
Drown my demons
Abi Feb 1
I’m afraid I’ll never be the same again
I used to love affection
Random hugs and kisses
Now if anyone comes to close I flinch
I just remember your hands
And how it felt to be hit
Everything scares me now
I’m afraid to be too loud
I remember those rare moments you were kind
I now realize I was blind
Those moments gave me hope
That maybe anger wasn’t your only side
I tried to sympathize with your demons
Excuse your behavior because of your past
I used that as a reason I stayed
But I should have just walked away
You showed me your true colors
And like a fool I said in my head “I can help him love himself.”
I realize now you can’t help someone who won’t help themselves
Why
Why
I ask myself that a lot now
Why would you tell me you loved me
When it was so easy for you to lust for others
Why would you drag me along for so long
When your love for me was gone
Maybe you just liked seeing me hurt
And enjoyed dragging my heart threw the dirt
I wish you would have let me go sooner
Instead you were a user
Used up my body
Used up my heart
Used up my soul
Now nothing is left
You left me distressed
Although I guess now I’m blessed
I see you for you now
I’m no longer blinded by your false words
You told me “hurt people hurt people”
That was just an excuse
One of the many you used
To try and downplay your abuse
I know you’ll never admit to anyone you were the problem
You’ll blame me
Call me a *****
Say I got what I deserved
That’s okay with me
You can say I’m the villain
But everyone finds out the truth
You’ll never be able to hide the real you
No matter how hard you try
You can always see it in the eyes
You said I was your karma
I’m glad
I hope I made you mad
I hope it hurt
I hope I crushed whatever heart you had left in the dirt
Just like you did mine
You don’t deserve happiness
You don’t deserve kindness
You deserve your own hell on earth
Funny thing is
You’re ruining your own life
Creating your own demise
Goodbye
I hope I never see you again in this life
Abi Jan 27
You’re different than the others
I could tell from the moment we started talking
I used to dream of someone like you
Someone that would listen
That saw me for me
Saw my attitude
Anger
And didn’t want to change it
You didn’t paint me as a villain
Or say you could fix it
You made me feel perfect
Even with my imperfections
I can never thank you enough
For helping me love myself

You’re different than the others
When I tell you about my past
I can tell it upsets you
No one’s ever cared like that
To feel angry for me
To even bother really listening
I already am envisioning
What our future looks like
We are so similar
I feel like our souls are alike
I think we were meant to find each other
To be lovers in this life

You’re different than the others
We connect on a different level
You made me realize I used to just settle
Now I know I deserved better
I want this forever
You and me against the world
You’re not just my lover
You’re my best friend as well
Sometimes it’s still hard to comprehend
Why you want me
When everyone else seemed so eager to leave
But I know that’s just my brain in disbelief
That someone like you
Wants someone like me
Love you’re lil hot pocket<3
Abi Jan 21
I feel lost now
You made me lose myself
I was so self assured before you
You took pleasure in breaking me
Piece by piece
Watching me crumble at your feet
You took pleasure in my pain
Laughing in my face
You would watch me cry
And walk away
I feel lost now
I’m trying to find myself again
Pick up the pieces you broke so easily
Mend them together for me
Some days it’s easy
They fit together like a puzzle
Other days It’s hard
The broken shards don’t fit quite right
Too many small pieces missing
I feel lost now
I hope one day I’ll get back
To how you I was before you
I don’t want to be broken anymore
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