I treat people as if they are disposable,
I keep them at arms length,
Always sure to never let them truly see me
For who I am and what I’ve been through
patiently waiting
For them to **** up.
Now, the size of the **** up does not matter so much
As the fact that the **** up occurred
If you **** up you cannot be trusted.
because what would have happened
If I shared with you part of me
And you took it with you, as you ****** up?
Now I am less than whole with one less person in my life
Something I cannot afford
So I wait for the **** up
So I can let you go
Before I even get the chance to give you a peace of me
Before you even get the chance to run away
With a piece of me

I want to thank you for taking him off of my hands
If it weren't for you who knows how long I would continue to compromise myself in hopes of his approval

I thank God for meeting you
All the pain you put me through
Will prove to be useful one day

Today I realized
I have always felt like I never belonged
Because I am one of a kind
1 of 1
a miracle to the masses
I belong to no one and am no one thing
I am everything
I cannot be imitated and I cannot be confined
I will always answer to my higher calling
And fulfill my destiny
Whatever she reveals herself to be

Time and time again
Ive asked You
To put an new batch
of people in my life
Every so often
You listen

They never seem to be good enough
To satisfy my needs
I wonder what im looking for

At this point
It has to be me