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Kristie Nov 2020
You know I’ve had a rough year
It’s made me appreciate why I’m here
This year has taught me a lot
A lot about myself that I forgot
I forgot how to love me for me
I changing can’t you see
our time apart has been really hard
And Honestly I’ve put up a guard
I never want to hurt like I did again
So Personally I am against all men
They brought me down to much
I used to need a man and his touch
I relied on men for my own happiness
And I realize now that was ridiculous
I’ve learned to be happy alone
And to be okay on my own
I want things to stay the same
I don’t want to add feelings or games
I know to you this is strange
But you see this year I’ve changed
And I will not keep my mouth shut
Bout this feeling I have in my gut
A bad feeling down to my core
This feeling I cant ignore
That I am messing with my happiness
If we got back together w/ our naughtiness
And my happiness is now # one
So I am down to still have fun
But only for a day or three
Cause I’m still working on me
And I’m not ready for a man
I’m not ready to make plans
I don’t want to hurt like I did
So I’m keeping myself Closed w/ a lid
I am taking it day by day
Cause I like it this way
I’m sorry I’m not the same
I think cancer is to blame
I hope we stay in touch regardless
To me that seems harmless
For now this is how I feel
You know me just keeping it real
Kristie Nov 2020
What if a spark is relit
And that spark turns to fire
What if we hold on for a bit
And we’re what we desire
What if we needed this
And everything we want is there
What if it’s more then a kiss
And we are a perfect pair
What if we jus hold on
And we never let go
What if I accept that your an excon
And we run. Nobody will know
What if we ignore the bad signs
And we try this out
What if I make you mine
And we do it without doubt
What if we start this off right
And we move on from the past
What if it works, I think it might
And this time we make it last
What if know one has to know
And we just don’t tell anyone
What if we not give them a show
And for now we just have fun
What if we’re together along time
And then we come out
What if they see you treat me fine
And we show them what we’re about
What if they believe we’re not the same
And show we have a healthy relationship
What if we explain drugs were to blame
And they understood and didn’t trip
What if what we truly want we get
And our ending doesn’t ever end
What if our love is no longer a threat
And we don’t have to pretend
What if this story comes true
And I make you my man
What if I am forever your boo
And forever your biggest fan
What if. For real. What if.
Kristie Nov 2020
I love your arms wrapped around me
It makes me feel like we’re meant to be
Oh how I’ve fallen hard for you
I hope you feel the same way too
You got me feeling like I’m on cloud 9
Oh how I just want you to be mine
Our time together has been such a blast
I can see that you and I just might last
And I really don’t see any other way
so come on boo what do you say?
Kristie Oct 2020
One day I got the call
Doc said it can’t wait
I couldn’t help, but ball
there had to be a mistake
It doesn’t run in my family
And I’m too young for it
Cancer before I’m 30
Now ain’t that *******
Kristie Oct 2020
Ready for the king
Where I’ll be free
So one last piece
Last piece of me
I’m sorry momma
Put you thru hell
And alotta drama
But only you could tell
That I really did try
to quit this ****
And not get High
Or take another hit
I even asked for help
and only you could see
How invisible I felt
Bein an addict like me
To a world unseen
And a world that was mean
I was a good person
I treated people right
Yet my addiction worsened
Everyday and every night  
Cause the world was mean
So I numbed the abuse
Why should I get clean?
What’s the use?
I’ll always be sad
And still alone
Never good enough dad
Mom I jus wanna go home
So before I set myself free
Here’s my last piece
Last piece of me
Kristie Mar 2020
Haven’t you had enough?
Aren’t you getting tired?
Always had it rough
But it’s time to retire
You’ve been through a lot
And now give your everything
Give everything you got
Let’s earn that key ring
I know the urges ****
But you gotta stay strong
It’s time to give a ****
7years is too long
Cried too many tears
The world had done you wrong
Let’s make up those years
I know he left more then a bruise
You dealt with so much abuse
You were so broken
Numbing all the pain
Foil after foil always smokin
With nothing to lose or gain
Smokin crack and *******
It’s left you so empty
So you moved onto clear
Then you always had plenty
You were calm with no fear
Til one night you broke down
Someone needed to know
An addict wanting to be found
Praying you would overdose
You were tired of being unseen
You finally hit rock bottom
All you want is to be clean
Your life was such a mess
You caused a lot of stress
But now it’s your turn
Your turn to stay clean
You got key tags to earn
No longer going to be unseen  
And when you have a bad day
You need to read this
And get your **** to NA
At times this drug you’ll miss
But always remember
7 years this drug took from you
Your life will get better
So please before you react or do
Go to a meeting or two
And pray god gets you through
It’s time to find the old you
I know she’s in there
The girl who used to care
The one that made people laugh
So give it your all and not just half
Fight your hardest fight
Gotta do this for you
You deserve to be the light
You will feel like new it’s true
Stay strong and hold on
You got this

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