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Mar 2019 · 301
Letgo.
Christina Mar 2019
I saw you today
In your truck
Windows tinted yet
I still knew that was you
You passed by and I could see you
Hat brimmed around your face
Stubbled beard how I always liked it
You looked okay, like nothing happen between us
You weren’t looking for me
like I’ve been looking for you
That’s when I decided
It’s time to let you go
Mar 2019 · 125
Moving On.
Christina Mar 2019
One decision
That’s all it took to disassemble everything I had planned
3 months and my life will change
New faces and scenery
A new beginning
But I’m stuck in my old ways
Mar 2019 · 216
Half of me
Christina Mar 2019
I’m half the person I used to be
The other given to you
A shell of the person I was
Dreams washed out to sea
Waiting for the tide to wash back in
Mar 2019 · 487
Alone
Christina Mar 2019
Alone
No where to turn
No where to go
I feel like I’m lost
With no hope in sight
I’ve lost half of me
Twice
there’s no getting that back
Mar 2019 · 237
TheStoryofUs
Christina Mar 2019
I remember every single thing
Our first date
Hazelnut ice coffee;Nutella donut
your favorite
You were smiling from ear to ear with that handsome grin
Second date
Sitting in your car
Under the bridge
Telling you my deepest secrets
Hand in hand
Introduced to your friends
Anxiety ridden but safe
That became the beginning of us

I’ve always felt at home
So I let down my walls
built a home inside of you
I let you guard that door
I was living in a dream
Then
Came the storm
Barreling down our house
The walls began to tumble
As depression conquered my mind
I tried to hide but you could see through
You began feeling sorry, guilty
Like you couldn’t walk out that door
when all you wanted to do was
Demolish this house, our house
So I opened the door for you
You stood there, contemplating
You walked right through
You locked the door
Threw out the key
Never to return again
This was the story of us.
Mar 2019 · 141
Poetrysuprise.
Christina Mar 2019
words flood my page
Pour out like a tidal wave  
Rediscovering
Heart
Mind
Soul
Relive that moment to capture
the details
the emotion
put it on display
for everyone to see
Mar 2019 · 123
10months
Christina Mar 2019
Woulda
Coulda
Shoulda
Been
But you cut it short.
Mar 2019 · 136
Outerspace
Christina Mar 2019
Take a pill
Smoke some ****
Expand the mind
Explore
Mar 2019 · 150
Maybe It’s Me
Christina Mar 2019
I dug deep
It helped me write
Feel
Express
But now that’s all I’m thinking of
You
The hurt
Missing
Needing
Wishing
That things were different

I want to go back
To how it was when I felt happy
Safe
In love
On top of the world
Now all you make me feel is lonely
Sad
Not good enough

You were my best friend
The love of my life
My partner in crime


But couldn’t handle my depression
I became a burden
Too much to handle
I wish I never took those pills
I wish I never got so bad
Maybe we would of had a chance
Maybe there’s something wrong with me
Mar 2019 · 133
Blackhole
Christina Mar 2019
Sadly I knew it was over
Before it actually ended
I dug a deep hole
And dragged you in with me
Mar 2019 · 158
Gone
Christina Mar 2019
You were the love of my life
My future
Now our memories run through my mind
Like a slideshow
Of all the good times
Laughs
Love
Passion
Overrides the bad that we had
So why did you let go
Do you not remember
All the love we shared

Im hanging on to hope
That you’ll remember
You’ll come back
I wait
And wait
It’s 2 months and your still gone
I guess you made up your mind
Never to return
Mar 2019 · 140
Deep
Christina Mar 2019
Im digging down deep
To where it hurts
Open that wound and let the blood
pour out
Just enough to close it up
And try again tomorrow
Mar 2019 · 126
Anxiety
Christina Mar 2019
For a while you understood it
Compassionate and empathetic
Then it happen
Again,
Again,
Again,
A vicious cycle to return
Then it became
Annoying
Sad
Resentment
You couldn’t understand anymore
So you escaped
Mar 2019 · 234
Trainwreck
Christina Mar 2019
I thought I was getting through this
Day by day
I saw the light at the end of the track
But you derailed me
Knocked me off my feet
And Buried me
Mar 2019 · 172
Dreaming
Christina Mar 2019
I feel like I’m in a dream
Trapped in a bubble
Looking from inside
Out
Life keeps passing
But stand there
Still
Not knowing which way to go
To escape
To wake
If it was only a dream
Mar 2019 · 131
Who am I?
Christina Mar 2019
I can’t feel
Numb
Up and down
Round and round
When will this stop
spinning
dreaming
missing
When will I come back to
Reality
Mar 2019 · 123
The one
Christina Mar 2019
I remember looking in to your eyes
Thinking this is the one
The way you made me laugh
The way you made me smile
The way you made me feel safe
At home
The way you always told me
“You’re too pretty to cry”
Now I’m sitting here
Tears rolling down my cheek
Then I think
I guess I’m not so pretty anymore
Mar 2019 · 114
Accident
Christina Mar 2019
Two cars
Slammed together
My first thought
What if that was me?
Who would be there?, who would love me?
Oh how I wanted that to be me.
Mar 2019 · 118
Where are you?
Christina Mar 2019
Everywhere I go
I look for you
Every car that passes by
Every person that walks by
Everywhere I go
I look
But you’re not there
Mar 2019 · 140
Awkward
Christina Mar 2019
I feel out of place.
Like I don’t belong.
Awkward and no eye contact.
I’ll never be those girls.
Mar 2019 · 246
Memories of you
Christina Mar 2019
Memories block my path.
Put me in a cage.
All I want to do is escape.
Escape the thought of you and finally be free.
Mar 2019 · 147
Us
Christina Mar 2019
Us
I can’t stop thinking about us. All I wanted was a future, I thought I found the one. Yet, you didn’t feel the same. You hid the true you, and I lost the true me. It’s about time we find ourselves again.

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