He cracked my shell and ****** me out
The base of spine to the tip of my spout
I came willingly, I didn’t fight
It felt so good I knew it was right
I wanted to be consumed by him
I wanted to be inside him
I’ve never met anyone like him
Never felt so understood
Never felt so desired
He lifted my hood and saw I was wired
The wrong way
Maybe I AM gay
But maybe I can sway
Maybe it’s gray
And not black and white

He saw me
For who I am not who I could be
How could he know, how did he see
The real me
Buried inside, so deep I was lost
Trying to fit, but what was the cost
He showed me
How to be true and how to be *****
The wrong side of 40 the right side of 30
I can be
All of these things with all of my senses
In present and future, in all of the tenses

As I lie in this bed we recently shared
I must admit I feel rather scared
For I no longer feel complete without you
The days are long and my mood is blue
You lit up my life one day at a time
You’re beautiful eyes would look into mine
And ignite my soul, the fire inside
Until you I feared this flame had died

I’ll hold you so tight you and I become one
Like the yin and the yang, the moon and the sun
I want to be with you, the person I won’t
Be with anyone else, I should but I don’t
Reach deep into me and pull it all out
The fear and the loathing, the sadness and doubt
The joy and the love, excitement and beauty
I want you to see it all that is me