Your sweet nectar is satisfying to my tongue,
Just as bread is fulfilling to the poor,
I breathe in your very presence,
Such a sweet aroma to my nostrils,
You look at me as if for the first time,
Awed and amazed by my beauty,
You reach for my hand, and gently brush my fingertips,
A wave of ecstasy jolts your body, and lights up your soul,
Our past, present, and future unfolds before your eyes,
Love is the seed and our hearts are the soil,
Let it grow and blossom as flowers do in the spring.

Walking into your room that day,
It made my blood turn cold,
You weren't suppose to die yet,
At least not til' you were old,
I didn't want to believe it,
I just hugged you last night,
Who would take care of us now?
And make sure that we're alright,
You just layed there in silence,
You didn't blink or bat an eye,
My hands softly touched your body,
As tears poured from my eyes,
How could you be gone so soon?
And just leave us both behind,
Were you even sad to leave us?
What thoughts ran through your mind?
You were my mom, yet my friend,
Your life was snatched away so quick,
No more pancakes in the morning,
No more hugs when we were sick,
No more dancing in the hallway,
No more sleeping in your bed,
No more polish on your nails,
No more rollers on your head,
No more trips to the laundry mat,
No more helping you fold clothes,
No more combing our pretty hair,
No more making us wear bows,
How could this happen to an angel?
Who was loved and held so dear,
The very absence of your presence,
Makes me wish that you were here,
I know that you were suffering,
And God granted you eternal rest
He returned one of his angels,
Because He always knows what's best.
If I could have another day with you,
I'd cherish that moment til the end,
But for now rest in peace mommy,
And I hope to see you then.

I see you, but I’m unsure if you’re aware,
That same look you’re giving her, was once the same look you gave me,
Your eyes close in on her beauty, captivated by her essence,
You gaze at her for one second too long, and are suddenly caught off guard by my glare,
You pause for a moment, trying to conjur up a clever excuse as to why your eyes were fixated in that direction,
Unsure of your approach, you swiftly turn your head calculating any vantage point you can find,
Hesitating for a brief moment, you pause to gather your thoughts,
Your tongue is heavy, words stuck to the roof of your mouth like sap on a tree,
You take a deep breath, allowing the air to cool your nostrils,
But before your premeditated words can spew out over your lying lips,
They are cut off instantly by my mine,
“She’s beautiful isn’t she?”
Caution warns you to dismiss my statement,
A huge lump forms at the back of your throat, but you’re reluctant to swallow it,
You want to agree with me, but past arguments urge you to tread lightly,
“She’s okay, not better looking than you!”
I laugh, but not in an amusing way,
I’m disgusted by your dishonesty, embodied by cowardice,
You never could be honest with me, as much as you wanted to you just couldn’t,
My eyes search yours with disappointment, but then suddenly I look away,
Your hand reaches for mine, but I angrily ****** it back; hurt, broken, jealous,
Regret sadly escapes your lips, gently brushing my ears,
I revert back to those words you’ve declared to me over the years in my head, but why can’t I believe them right now?
This one critical moment when I need to believe them the most, fall on deaf ears,
Uncertainty showering down on me, drowning my assurance,
And in this moment I realize I’m insecure.