Yesterday I thought about you.
Your smile your voice and your laugh.
I remembered you yesterday like I do on most days.
The memories are not much
But they are there
A constant reminder of what we shared
Before you left.


My God I loved you and I still do
Because we shared a bond like no other
A bond that refuses to be broken
Even in the face of distance and prolonged periods of silence
A bond that stands strong even with the harsh and bitter
Words that we said and shouted to each other.
Even after we attacked each other's innermost insecurities.


Sometimes I wonder why
We couldn't see eye to eye anymore
Why we couldn't enjoy each other anynore
Which devil attacked our perfect paradise
And if ever we could get back what we had
Or maybe get an antidote because this
The bitterness of our separation may be the end of us.


And I still see you in my dreams
I still hear your voice in my head
**** I still hold conversations with you.
Perhaps I need something
To **** me back to reality
Because the fantasy that is us
Will never be.