I thought I would never laugh again,
I thought I would never smile again,
I've only realized that I needed time and space to think,
I needed time to know what I want
Even though I knew what I wanted.
I only got a time to find myself, 
I only got time to find who "Am I"

I'm glad that my heart is healing day by day,
Hour by hour,
I'm glad that my wounds are now healing.
Is it because I've found happiness?
I would say;
Every piece of happiness I have, 
Comes from my very own supportive friends I have,

The pain I was feeling before
It was preparing for my happiness,
It was preparing me for my destiny,
This pain was basically showing me that I can also do everything for myself.

I thought that I've failed in life,
Because I can't stand up for myself,
I thought that life has given up on me,
But then I realized that it was preparing me for another day.
Life has showed me that there are people I cannot trust,

So, I was lost because no one could help me,
I was lost to an extent where I've come to realize that no one wants to hear me,

I was lost but then I was found.
I was found by someone who can prepare me for tomorrow,
Someone who showed me the correct path,

Someone who allowed me to lean on her shoulder when times were hard,
I will never forget the day I've met the person who contributed much of her time on me,

The person who talked with me and made sure that I understand, 
And at the end of the day I feel better.

The person who contributed her time,
Her space and showed me that life has it's own ups and downs. 

Someone I've trusted with all my secrets and became true to me.
But the question is;

How does this become part of my happiness?

This became part of my happiness 
Because only one person became interested to hear about my pain,
Not only that but also to help me step by step.

I believe that I had to trust only one person,
"The best way to find out if you can trust somebody is to trust them."

Happiness has been all my heart was looking for,
It was what I always wanted.

I believe that for one to find happiness,
They need to accept themselves for who they are,
And begin to search for it different ways.

Here I am today,
I managed to find happiness,
I've managed to search for the seed to happiness. 

I think I needed happiness to find myself, 
But firstly I needed to forgive and let go,
I've managed to find the seed to happiness,
The seed to freedom, 
And the seed to find myself.

The most important thing is;
Find a seed that will grow the flowers of happiness to your life,
The flower that will unlock the seed of happiness...

I'm unable to know where I go,
I'm unable to get what I want,
I've tried to go on the other side of the road but there are people that I cannot trust,

But when I get to the other side, there's someone that I can trust
Someone whose name means "Trustworthy"
Someone who has opened her heart to share her kindness,
Someone who is thoughtful, caring, loving, honest, sweet, strong, bold, smart and not judgmental.

I've found myself a friend and a sister in one person,
I've found someone that I can share my pain with,
Someone who is trustworthy,
Someone that can understand the situation without judging,
Someone that makes a joke out of anything.
I have found a sister and a friend,

Trustworthy is her name...

Why Me?
what did I do to deserve this?
What can I do to change the way things are?
These are the questions that one asks when they go through pain.

I thought I would stop asking myself too many questions.
But the thing is;
Why Me?

What did I do?
What happened when we used to smile together?
What happened because we grew up together?
I guess I won't be able to get answers.

But the thing is;
Why Me?

Long ago, things used to happen
Recently, those things are still happening.
When will I get peace?
When will I feel that my heart is no longer in pain?
When will I stop crying?

I cried so hard thinking my scars will heal,
Thinking my wounds will heal,
But now I can see that it will take time for me to heal.
It will literally take time for me to find inner peace.

But the thing is;
Why Me?

Why should things continue to go in a wrong direction?
Why is my mind always thinks the negativity?
Why can't I just forget and let go?
I guess I will keep on asking too many questions without getting answers.
I think, I think and I think.

But the thing is;
Why Me?

I tried to fight on my own,
But I failed, because I don't have the strength to fight.
Is it because of I'm kind, sweet and/or shy?
Is it the reason why people always find time to play on top of my head?
Is that an answer?

I feel like there's something that doesn't add up
I feel like every time when I try to speak for myself I don't get heard,
I feel like every time I ask questions no one is interested in answering...

Why should I be treated differently?
Why, why and why again?
But the thing is;
Why Me?