Sometimes love is not enough
and the road will get tough,
and I don't know why,
but there's a strength to letting go,
and i have fought the war,
but now it's time to go home.

A fire started,
the rain came and put it out.
And in the end a new
transformation came out of the rubble.

My heart hurts,
but it’s not the heart attack kind of hurt but a heart
broken kind of way.

My heart is full of unspoken pain that’s
holding my heart down.

It’s keeping me from being happy.....
from being me.

Hi its me,
the carapace of a person who was once content and happy-go-lucky.
Now i'm a person who every second has to look over their shoulder to feel safe, afraid that if i don't,
my demons might catch up to me in the dark.
Who doesn't grin as much as she should. who has to fake a grin to make sure everyone around doesn't suspect that she's not joyous.
She hopes for a miracle to make her who she once was.

Catch me as i fall.
Falling from the sky into the deepest parts of the ocean.
descending from life to death.
Letting the ocean rock me to sleep, like a mother would her new born child.
As the sky waves farewell to me.
watch as i let go and forget,
forget who i once was.

Watch as the wind cares my anxiety, stress, fears and disappointments away,
Watch as they float through the air lifting further and further away.
Up into the cloud they fly away,
leaving me feeling refreshed and reborn.
Watch as the cycle repeats continually.

A prisoner in my own mind.
Trying so hard to break free.
Trying to flee a place of void, with no way in, and no way out.
Standing in total darkness.
How can you runaway from the things in your head,
things that you can’t touch or see, but can hear?
That’s the thing, you can’t.
You can either
continue to fight trying to get rid of them or
you for trying to escape.